On Dusenberry and life

Phil Dusenberry, former Chairman of BBDO (that's the ad agency, silly)

been reading his book and found it somewhat motivating in the sense that ther seemed to be little hammers embedded within the paragraphs. these little hammers seem to pop out every once in a while to give me a good whack on the head. much needed.

whenever i put on that thinking cap...

funny how my uncle on the other side of the globe thinks i'm up to 'something' cos he always sees me online after midnight. whoever comes up with these theories must be up to something themselves...

but hey, fyi, i've been up to something which is no secret. everyone knows i'm doing that journalism course based in NY, thus the weird hours.

'if i die tonight, *hugs* till we meet again.'

i am deafer than deaf

half of the world seem to be pushing me to move, the other half decided i am better off sticking around. i assume until about november.

knowing myself, i will not be able to wait that long.

might have a stab at being a [regular?] contributor at a less known broadsheet in filo land. however, a lot of things depend on solemn time at hand.

with three people living in this room, i'm not quite sure about the odds of that happening. time to come up with a new schedule.

perhaps writing at work aint so bad.

the missing mantra

tough life.
it's never easy to get where you want to go. at least i know that goes for most of you, normal folks out there.

today's one of those days when i was faced with such reality that questioned my purpose, among other things. the ultimate question now has become 'how do i get to where i want to go?' as opposed to the previous 'where am i headed?'

my past haunts me. everyone around me and who knows me will be able to tell that i love being where i am (geographically but to a certain extent) and if i do turn back, it will not be a 'final decision.'

i scorn the culture that nurtured me. i am trying to break through and even people from my mother land won't give me a chance, muchless some due respect. perhaps for the time being i should be taking my goods elsewhere.

one hundred and ninetieth blog

post talk of the town piece draft//
me thinks my brain need some spanking. or maybe just a hell of an exercise!
i just gotta edit and make this piece work!
dang!

*** edit ***

think i'm losing touch with the arts and media.
i'm on a wave of euphoria. i got better comments for my third assignment.
more pressure on the 4th one. sigh. where's my angle!!!!! waaaah! come back to me!

Queen's Bday long weekend

Happy Birthday, Queen!

it's not really her bday. last week, western australia had queen's bday public holiday. our turn now. coinciding with filo independence day this time.

YAAAWWWWNNN!!!

i feel like a cat. i'm so so tired, probably the crap weather.

i have to sit and do my article. i just lost it. i had everything drafted in my head during that newtown to city bus ride. i went to newtown to be enlightened. it wasn't too bad.

sydney film festival// hong kong express// the myth
that movie's nuts. gotta watch another one so as to have that good SFF 06 impression.

can't get US out of my head. can't get NYC out of my head. i'm getting more and more people to join my bandwagon. i'm not even campaigning. sigh! i feel like going already!

Gone Bananas.

Third blog for the day. I need to sort my thoughts out, cure myself of my scatter-brainedness. Did I just make up a word there?

I need to go back to structure, to methodical thinking. Where did they all go?

Painstalkingly, I need to work my ass off. I feel confused, I feel slightly frustrated. I feel like jumping around, screaming and throwing things around.

When I was in school I feared failing my subjects more because it is a big disappointment within myself and also because I could never imagine what my parents would do. I haven't had that fear for a while. But I think somehow it's back and it's bigger than ever.

If I fail, I am doomed.

I'm sure everyone passes in this course. The failure comes where I fail to deliver my goods. That being said, I just have to say I'm stressed beyond words but rather optimistic because I will be a journalistic geek from now on.

And everything does revolve around New York nowadays. I just have to add that.

FREAKout.

my assignment is just baaad. the one i just submitted today. sigh. i better get ready for some grilling and killing next week. this is what i get for not working on my assignment early enough.

cuz in texas getting married 3 march! yay! hello US of A!

i'm trying to kick start my freelancing career... to no avail.

on a journalistic trek

Kat used to say girls ought to have 12 days sickie in a year. Think all the girls will agree. I needed to take one of those today. I'm dying in anguishing pain. I refuse to take the pill.

Crammed for Assignment Numero Tres last night... err... this morning. Think it's absolutely crap. If I had 3 more pages to fill I would have made my own Lonely Planet "The Rocks". It was a travel story.

Currently revising my exhibition review. The only thing is. I needed to go beyond the surface. Literary skills came handy for this one. I have to admit that for the most part, this is a bit of an ego-crushing course. I daresay it's healthy.

Eyes A-bLiNkIn'

after showering at half past midnight, my eyelids still feel heavy.
i need to study. i mix up my passwords for my blog and my online classroom.
glad i don't have that many passwords to mix around.

blah! where's brian? i call my brain brian for rather obvious reasons. ;)
i forgot why i decided to blog.

went to see graeme murphy's director's cut (contempo dance).
coolness.

chopsuey!

//noun// a dish originating from the Chinese migrants, made up of mixed vegetables and pork bits cooked in thick sauce.

--- HEAR ME OUT!

let me say what i've been wanting to say
let me hear what i've been dying to hear

--- The End.

Mr. B comes back on monday! yay! the end of my long hours. hopefully.

--- Days Off in July!

Hi Ivannah,

Thank you so much for volunteering for Hillsong Conference 2006. Your application has now been processed and you have been allocated to:

TV - TV Crew (Camera, CCU, Assist)

Someone from that department will be in touch with you shortly to inform you of your roster for conference and any training dates that you might need to know.

--- Insights from Above

God does put in your heart what He wants you to be doing
What is meant for you will be kept, set aside for you
Go back to Asia! (Go back to Asia? Hmmm... Could that be for me?)