ANGST. warm fuzzies & Natural Highs!

I was bargaining for 2 more hours of sleep when work called because the other supervisor didn't have a key. She apologized and said she didn't have a choice. Yeah but she could have foreseen the dilemma before it even occurred. What's wrong with people? And she was alone so I gave Tim-o his wake up call. He couldn't stop swearing knowing he slept in. HAHA!

I lost my chance of sleeping in and having my well-deserved rest.

Slowly got up, showered, got dressed in my non-work clothes and made my way to the store. One of the brewers burned internally so bye bye Columbia Shuttle! The store reeked of burnt rubber for a bit. Oh well. The store looked neat as we came in. That was excellent. I closed last night. =) New manager's coming in tomorrow! Finally! She (Barbara) called me last Friday to check on things. She's ultra cool.

I refuse to be pissed off because of work now. Maybe in general I just refuse to make things get to me. Tired of it. It's all part of life anyway. The injustice will always be there. I was catching up with a friend after work last night. We both realized how every little thing that goes wrong can be destructive....

The 2004 angst still lingers. The space it occupies used to be void.

From a totally different music comes images of those black and white kittens sleeping peacefully, wrapped around each other; that kid happily running around while his parents carried a 2-seater lounge into their apartment complex; and the couple relaxing on a couch as they watch something on TV under tungsten lighting.

Did a whole lotta singing in the morning. Lunch by the Harbour was nice. The sun was up and brightly shining. I could sit there all day but I had things to do. I paid a pretty good price for a meal, a view and a good dose of sunshine.

Mom checked if my best friend's gonna come visit. I said she will eventually. Mom was thinking of swinging by and taking me to Adelaide or Tazmania for a bit of a breather. I told her we will postpone to December. Hopefully my little bro will come, too.

An awful lot of things to look forward to.

I am still kinda lost but I believe I will regain my life after the coming week.

response to "the need"

I felt so sad reading about the South Korean executed in Iraq. I wasn't even aware of the issue until Josc told me about it. I'm so blah when it comes to current events. My mom's been pushing me to read the news.

Still studying. Did crap in today's exams as I almost dozed off towards the end and totally stuffed up a 22 point question. It was a tricky one, yes but still I couldn't be THAT duh! Anyhow, I gotta move on with life and so I have decided to ignore the fact that once in every 4 hours my energy level drops to nil and I just feel drowsy on top of everything else. Perfect timing.

Went to dinner with workmates cos Al's off to Denmark in about 15 hours. It was nice. I tried to talk and be as chirpy as possible but haha I still feel blah. It was a good dinner nonetheless. We had Italian at Cockle Bay. It took me bloody ages to finish my meal. Totally not me.

Mom rang me whilst I was waiting for my train at Town Hall. It was very timely cos I was having that I-need-my-mommy moment. She was just checking on me saying she saw my picture and was wondering how recent it was as I looked pale and all that (read:crap). And so I clued her in on my deteriorating state. And then came yadda yadda yadda. Typical mommy dialogue on what I should do, eat, not do, not eat.

I reckon it was just the prolonged stress. Currently trying to chill as I study. I like Auditing but it doesn't like me very much. I don't aim very high these days. Change of values.

The Itch.

If I were a tiny, tiny bit more messed up, you would have been stepped on. Stepped on like that wriggling fish on the carpet. Squished. Worked like a charm. The fish stopped wriggling. It stopped wriggling, right?

Filo Film Fest coming up in February. I just got the email today and I so wanna be in.
Concerns:
a. Filo-oriented screenplay
b. Writing in Filo
c. Location, location
d. Cast and crew
e. Editing and dubbing to DVD
f. Oh yeah almost forgot the finances

Holidays. Should I go on one? When and where?

Sydney Film Fest. And so I ditched half my shifts. I have exams and I just thought it wasn't worth it. I managed to pinch a cool volunteer ID. I value its rarity and the fact that I have acquired it with my wits. *chuckle*

Me and Amy went to see this Hongkie flick, Infernal Affairs II. It's pretty cool. I never expected it to be so fresh. It was as brutal and violent as Quentin Tarantino, without the sarcasm. I could be wrong cos the subtitles could have given the script a brand new interpretation.

Tickets were complements of this mystery lady who just handed us her tickets whilst we were waiting on this guy who wait-listed us at the box office. I was almost gonna approach the festival people and demand for my free tickets.

Went to see Shrek 2 with Al for a laugh-out-loud fun pre-exam farewell celebration. Oh well. Too many adjectives there. It was fab! Just brilliant! I can just sit here with a childish grin on my face.

I'm once again procrastinating. Why isn't it November yet?

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my haven of rest

Alas, I went to work today. Ended up studying in my place of work where I get bottomless drinks and warranted interruptions. I came home to realize that I can study better at home now. Of course, not with the computer on as I will forever find any for of media miles and miles more interesting than accounting.

I have been pondering about how my dreams have been more meaningful as they have as of late warned me about certain things. I had an interesting dream the other night but I couldn't remember what it was. Oh well.

My best friend reminded me of Father's Day. It's this Sunday, apparently. But Australia celebrates it in September so I didn't know. I have to remember to call dad.

Back to my book. I should log out.

Blubbermouth

Today is art film day. I just feel like watching one. Maybe after I do some studying. Argh.

I get today and tomorrow off work. Glorious! I shall not go anywhere near work. But sadly I do have to go to the city for something.

Classes are out of the way so the main antagonists of my concerns include work and exams. That is really about it. I couldn't be bothered about anything else. I did the right thing volunteering for the film festival. It was nice doing dumb things sans all the care in the world. I get to watch random films, too which would be a plus anytime anyday.

The docos: 1. Tupac Resurrection, 2. Haunting Douglas. These are the main films I've seen. The Tupac one was done by MTV so the style is very MTV Biorhythm, which I am a big fan of. It got a tad too long though as it dragged on for two hours. How verbose can one get telling somebody's life story? Believe me, I bet it was easy to get carried away.

Haunting Douglas is kiwi. It was the life of Douglas Wright, a choroeographer. It was interesting to see excerpts of his dances. I think that was the main source of my fascination. It was not so much on the style of the film as consistency was a bit off and it seemed like something I can do (read: amateurish).

I walked out of a few films due to dislike and slept through one Antonioni classic. The film just lost me after 15 minutes of trying to read subtitles without my visual aid whilst sitting far back the State Theatre (a more for plays than movies theatre). Other volunteers enjoyed their nap time, too thanks to Antonioni.

Yeah and so I did the dumb stuff of handing out voting slips, collecting votes and counting them thereafter whilst on shift at the festival. I ditched my shift yday cos I was really tired from my paid job. Nonetheless, it's still interesting to have a look around. It's a take your mind off things activity.

And now I am still faced with the dillema of figuring out my schedule for the day. I refuse to say hi to people at work and I refuse to talk about the intricacies of my work life. I shall write an essay on this. HA!

chill time

Weirdness overcomes me. I went to bed at 5pm, Thursday and woke up 10pm the same day. I am still up until 4:41am, Friday. I shall be off to work soon as I wanna get there early and get things organized. It's Friday again and no one shall make my shift a shitty one. I slept in again yday. Oh well. I don't care anymore.

I am an underpaid part time shift supervisor with a job description of a full time assistant manager. Enough said. I have stressed more than I should so here am I, with purely good intentions. I've had a nice big breakfast of olive fried rice and tuna, a satisfying humongous mug of water and a nice hot shower. I am sitting in my work clothes and my cool but stinky big black coat. I am ready to face the day. I have studied enough for now and shall leave my readings at home.

I had a happy night. Chatted with my Singaporean friends. Sharon might be coming in December and we shall do film stuff together and hike into the country on a lookout for dashing creatures. Hmmm.... not to mention the fab food we shall find! Errr... we were meant to be 'broke' thus we shall be begging for stale bread. Eeek. And eat them 1 second before they officially go stale.

Got an email from Hillsong and I got allocated to the TV Crew for the July conference!!! Glorious! Glorious! My film career should once again blossom... My first stint for the year will start this Saturday. I have 6 shifts of doing (dumb) volunteer work for the Sydney Film Festival. It would still be interesting.

This is the start of a busy busy life. I shall hang on. I'll be off to work soon. Have a good Friday!

Rekindling no flame

Starting the weird grind again. I felt bad sleeping through my 4:30am alarm. Went to bed at 10pm the previous night after taking headache tablets in an attempt to make the right start the next morning. It all backfired. I woke up at 6:30am when it was still looking like night time, checked my phone and found out I had a million missed calls and a million text messages from my work mates. I was meant to be at work by 6am and I planned to be in before 6pm.

I was sick in the morning but decided to jump in the shower to cool my head. Rocked up to work, 3 people there. They were in the store but they haven't opened. It took me a while to realize that. I sat at the back for ages and it took me a while to actually function. Such is life.

I finished early but I did rosters anyway and impressed my district manager. However, that's all I get. All intangible.

I had inhaled too many ciggy fumes from Jenny's chain smoking when I was tired the night before. It was a rainy morning, too. One of those days when you'd rather just stay home and pretend to not exist. It turned out to be a good day. Just had a bad start to it.

I had my good 6-hour sleep now. 7pm til 1am. Tomorrow should be a good day. I should get things done.