I am so having one of those days.
Deprived of a much needed rest, still rocked out of bed 15 past 5 in the early morning, got dressed and dragged me tiredness to the train station to catch that supposedly zooming locomotive that would get me to work right before the clock strikes 6.
It was a helluva shift with my state and other things I can only dub uncontrollable. I lived through it all and here I am sitting in front of my "workstation" having eaten something I've whipped up after so many weeks of not cooking.
Checked my emails. Heard from the mag and whoa, the ed-in-chief that I've known since July has vanished and decided to take on a role in Brissie. And so we've got a new ed-in-chief who sent through a list of assignments to everyone. Deadline's the 5th of January.
With the holidays around, my best bet is to pick ones that can be knitted into the Sydney intinerary of the vacationers.
Fingers crossed.
Thursday, December 23, 2004
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
Excess Baggage and The Blog Spirit
Apparently I do not seem to be carrying weights on my shoulder. I wouldn't really now for sure but I just wanted to make sure I do enough reality checks on myself to keep that to a minimum. I guess that whole depression thing sort of co-existing with me for X number of years when I was growing up did help.
Somehow I felt a tad down today coming from my doctor's appointment. I guess no matter how mild the "abnormality" is, there's still that adolescent in me that sent my brain the "something's wrong" signal. I just need a tad more iron and zinc in my system. That's it. I've got my medicine ready. It's just a matter of religiously taking them for the next 6 months. That's a long time. I hope I can hack that.
Went shopping. December sale is on. Bought a few christmas pressies and a few tops. I was getting a good deal as far as I am concerned. Still need to write my christmas cards.
Well, well.
Somehow I felt a tad down today coming from my doctor's appointment. I guess no matter how mild the "abnormality" is, there's still that adolescent in me that sent my brain the "something's wrong" signal. I just need a tad more iron and zinc in my system. That's it. I've got my medicine ready. It's just a matter of religiously taking them for the next 6 months. That's a long time. I hope I can hack that.
Went shopping. December sale is on. Bought a few christmas pressies and a few tops. I was getting a good deal as far as I am concerned. Still need to write my christmas cards.
Well, well.
Sunday, December 19, 2004
one turning point
I feel really drained at 11:44 pm this day, having woken up at 6:30am. Went through one of those Sundays where I crewed for Hillsong TV. Caught up with Pitter and Irene over lunch just after midday and then headed back to church with Na and met a bunch of new friends.
Morning was a blur until after the first service but I did not stuff things up, which is fabulous. It was the ultimate church day as I had a bit of a low in the arvo which was offset by what the morning and the evening services brought to me.
Was moved beyond words during the evening's annointing service. I just gotta sit down and relax.
Been beaching lately. Couple of trips to Manly Beach to enjoy the sun and have a bit of a walk around which also consisted of steak and ribs dinner with Casey and Amy, and an art cafe experience plus a two hour monopoly game with Rosa, Na and Jenny. Jenny ruled the board and I was the pauper.
I, the ultimate fan of the structured bad, bought what I would call a beach/dance bag. It was my first ever pink bag, not counting the little sling bags I've owned when I was a kid. Got it from Bondi last week. It's a Mimco. I'm such a big fan of Mimco.
Had to have the bag exchanged couple of days ago cos it was slightly damaged. What's cool is the girls in the store were ultra nice about it and very accomodating.
First ever Carols at the Domain last night. It was quite an experience just sitting amongst millions of Sydney-siders on the grass listening and singing christmas tunes sung by some of the big names of the land. Apparently the previous ones were better.
I'm so loving Sydney.
Morning was a blur until after the first service but I did not stuff things up, which is fabulous. It was the ultimate church day as I had a bit of a low in the arvo which was offset by what the morning and the evening services brought to me.
Was moved beyond words during the evening's annointing service. I just gotta sit down and relax.
Been beaching lately. Couple of trips to Manly Beach to enjoy the sun and have a bit of a walk around which also consisted of steak and ribs dinner with Casey and Amy, and an art cafe experience plus a two hour monopoly game with Rosa, Na and Jenny. Jenny ruled the board and I was the pauper.
I, the ultimate fan of the structured bad, bought what I would call a beach/dance bag. It was my first ever pink bag, not counting the little sling bags I've owned when I was a kid. Got it from Bondi last week. It's a Mimco. I'm such a big fan of Mimco.
Had to have the bag exchanged couple of days ago cos it was slightly damaged. What's cool is the girls in the store were ultra nice about it and very accomodating.
First ever Carols at the Domain last night. It was quite an experience just sitting amongst millions of Sydney-siders on the grass listening and singing christmas tunes sung by some of the big names of the land. Apparently the previous ones were better.
I'm so loving Sydney.
Sunday, December 12, 2004
The Ultimate Breeze Through
~ The Hippie Adventure: Take It or Leave It?
I spoke of that job interview prior to my Finance exam. That was for an organization involved in community work, activism and the like. I didn't get the job I wanted but they offered me something else. Something that involves menial work, which I do not really mind doing but it's not on top of my list. And so I have let it slip down the drain as they rang me when I was holidaying in Tassie and then the dude who rang me went on hols as well. So really, whatever.
However, it brought to my awareness that there exists a World Youth Congress happening in Scotland mid next year. Yes, I applied for it. If I get in, I might just go to Scotland. An excuse to go to Europe and who knows where else.
~ Travelling Tassie
My first stab at the backpacking experience. We travelled rather economically and given the destination, it did not require too much moolah. I spent a fair bit of time contemplating and calculating my finances and the possible lack thereof. I do not desire to struggle in the near future with my meager income and my love for all things good (the food, the arts and what have ya).
Tassie life is so surreal. It is nothing like what I grew up with. It was seeing my primary school art works come alive, realizing how I used to be ultra obssessed with clouds and mountains and greens. Nights in Tassie are rather dull with hardly anything to do, so much of a contrast from Asia or just even Sydney. Should I be made to live there, I might just go nuts. Either way, I'll definitely get to work on my creativity.
~ Exceeding Three Degrees
And so I have passed my Masters degree with utmost glee on my part. I have bid my academic life a good farewell with very little desire to welcoming it back. Well that does not mean I will not ever study again but I have no intent of gaining a fourth degree for sanity's sake!
I shall embark on whatever journey that invites me and that I find appealing.
~ The Big Ponder On Sydney
I told Na I was looking into Melbourne and its appeal as a possible next destination. Life does not end in Sydney. No way. But I know I'll be here for a while. I am just starting so let's say I'll be here a few years.
There's church life to consider. I took a 2-week hiatus from Hillsong because I had exams and was on holidays. My cell group involvement is looking good again. Though I haven't started joining a new group, I have a lead now. Went to the Christmas special last night and crewed for TV this morning. I reckon I did well and can move on soon. Hopefully, I get to be on camera by February.
~ Tu or Ubsten?
I'm taking up Spanish. Languages are pretty tricky but I feel the need to keep learning, not wanting to shrink my pea-sized brain further. Besides, there's Josc to speak Spanish with anyway, not to mention the elites back home. As if! ;)
I'm currently struggling to manage my relationships. I've gotten to know myself in a number of ways, also recognizing the fact that I am a sole survivor with the tendency to be clingy should I be caught off-guard, attributable to my need for recognition, slight self-esteem issues and perhaps the lack and/or excess of certain nutritional elements in my diet.
Typical me to psychologize myself. But to sum things up, I'm just forced to deal with difficult people in rather squishy situations. Funny how some other friends from miles and miles away are in the same murky pool. What's even funnier is that you who want out would have to help your own pitiful self.
I spoke of that job interview prior to my Finance exam. That was for an organization involved in community work, activism and the like. I didn't get the job I wanted but they offered me something else. Something that involves menial work, which I do not really mind doing but it's not on top of my list. And so I have let it slip down the drain as they rang me when I was holidaying in Tassie and then the dude who rang me went on hols as well. So really, whatever.
However, it brought to my awareness that there exists a World Youth Congress happening in Scotland mid next year. Yes, I applied for it. If I get in, I might just go to Scotland. An excuse to go to Europe and who knows where else.
~ Travelling Tassie
My first stab at the backpacking experience. We travelled rather economically and given the destination, it did not require too much moolah. I spent a fair bit of time contemplating and calculating my finances and the possible lack thereof. I do not desire to struggle in the near future with my meager income and my love for all things good (the food, the arts and what have ya).
Tassie life is so surreal. It is nothing like what I grew up with. It was seeing my primary school art works come alive, realizing how I used to be ultra obssessed with clouds and mountains and greens. Nights in Tassie are rather dull with hardly anything to do, so much of a contrast from Asia or just even Sydney. Should I be made to live there, I might just go nuts. Either way, I'll definitely get to work on my creativity.
~ Exceeding Three Degrees
And so I have passed my Masters degree with utmost glee on my part. I have bid my academic life a good farewell with very little desire to welcoming it back. Well that does not mean I will not ever study again but I have no intent of gaining a fourth degree for sanity's sake!
I shall embark on whatever journey that invites me and that I find appealing.
~ The Big Ponder On Sydney
I told Na I was looking into Melbourne and its appeal as a possible next destination. Life does not end in Sydney. No way. But I know I'll be here for a while. I am just starting so let's say I'll be here a few years.
There's church life to consider. I took a 2-week hiatus from Hillsong because I had exams and was on holidays. My cell group involvement is looking good again. Though I haven't started joining a new group, I have a lead now. Went to the Christmas special last night and crewed for TV this morning. I reckon I did well and can move on soon. Hopefully, I get to be on camera by February.
~ Tu or Ubsten?
I'm taking up Spanish. Languages are pretty tricky but I feel the need to keep learning, not wanting to shrink my pea-sized brain further. Besides, there's Josc to speak Spanish with anyway, not to mention the elites back home. As if! ;)
I'm currently struggling to manage my relationships. I've gotten to know myself in a number of ways, also recognizing the fact that I am a sole survivor with the tendency to be clingy should I be caught off-guard, attributable to my need for recognition, slight self-esteem issues and perhaps the lack and/or excess of certain nutritional elements in my diet.
Typical me to psychologize myself. But to sum things up, I'm just forced to deal with difficult people in rather squishy situations. Funny how some other friends from miles and miles away are in the same murky pool. What's even funnier is that you who want out would have to help your own pitiful self.
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
breaking the silence
I constantly find myself going inhale... exhale..inhale...exhale... in an effort to calm myself down and achieve a zen state of mind. Perhaps calmness is something the denizens of the fast lane long for on the one hand but feel guilty having on the other.
I am finally done with my academic life. I feel good, with minimal pressure on finding a full time job as oppossed to last time. I would attribute the difference to the wisdom that comes with age (read: a simple change in perspective), the current environment I thrive in, the lack of in your face expectations and just the fact that I do have a source of income.
Just got off from a bit over a week's worth of holidays. Pretty good but now is the time to make more $$ for more travelling. Got a bonus from work, expecting another one soon.
Holiday details coming up in future blogs.
I am finally done with my academic life. I feel good, with minimal pressure on finding a full time job as oppossed to last time. I would attribute the difference to the wisdom that comes with age (read: a simple change in perspective), the current environment I thrive in, the lack of in your face expectations and just the fact that I do have a source of income.
Just got off from a bit over a week's worth of holidays. Pretty good but now is the time to make more $$ for more travelling. Got a bonus from work, expecting another one soon.
Holiday details coming up in future blogs.
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
In a world of frenzy
How ever so engrossing is the book I currently have my nose buried into for the past X number of days. Felt so much like eternity. However, after this leg of a 70% final exam, I shall be free. I shall embark on a different path perhaps more exciting than that which I have known for the past two years of academic turmoil.
I sit before notes on options and the like, relatively suffering from information overload and brain weariness. I have my interview coming up but first things first, I should pass my exam first as that would free me into the world which I can venture until time claims me.
This is a mere expression of the agony I am currently into. Tonight I shall write with a different note, I would like to believe, pray, a more cheerful one.
I sit before notes on options and the like, relatively suffering from information overload and brain weariness. I have my interview coming up but first things first, I should pass my exam first as that would free me into the world which I can venture until time claims me.
This is a mere expression of the agony I am currently into. Tonight I shall write with a different note, I would like to believe, pray, a more cheerful one.
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
The Ultimate Test of All
I'm currently reading Yale University articles on finance. These are examinable components of my course and are prescribed by my lecturers. I wouldn't be reading them otherwise. Now, does Yale University articles help the struggling student comprehend the financial world better? These are perhaps excerpts from Professor Bill G's undergrad lectures. Ack. Too much stuff to read.
I have that Finance exam tomorrow arvo and.... an Oxfam interview in the morning which I am nervous about because I have no clue about Oxfam. It's not so much the 'job' that's nerve-wracking. I read through the current newsletter a tad and found this thingo happening in Scotland mid of next year. It's really a World Youth Congress. It's a good opportunity so I applied. The only issue now is raising funds for the trip should I get accepted...
Back to Prof G's notes...
I have that Finance exam tomorrow arvo and.... an Oxfam interview in the morning which I am nervous about because I have no clue about Oxfam. It's not so much the 'job' that's nerve-wracking. I read through the current newsletter a tad and found this thingo happening in Scotland mid of next year. It's really a World Youth Congress. It's a good opportunity so I applied. The only issue now is raising funds for the trip should I get accepted...
Back to Prof G's notes...
Sunday, November 21, 2004
That Afro Feeling
Got back from Hillsong about an hour ago. It was a good production. I didn't stuff up as much. Even if I did, theyIweren't my fault. It's just funny how things change so last minute. TV team was excellent today. Happy about it. Looking forward to more shifts this coming summer.
The afros I saw on the train reminded me of how I used to tell Narlyn whilst crossing the harbour bridge how I am ever so fascinated with Africans. I guess that stretched from staring ever so long at the African women's dreadlocks when I was a kid to just admiring the beauty that is usually shunned to wanting so much to go to Africa to enjoying the food and possibly the appreciation of everything African. Also flashback a couple of nights back when I felt so defensive over a very discriminating comment I heard referred to an African lass.
I am so behind Finance. My exam is a whopping 70% of the whole grade and I have about 2 days to study. Or should I say cram.
The afros I saw on the train reminded me of how I used to tell Narlyn whilst crossing the harbour bridge how I am ever so fascinated with Africans. I guess that stretched from staring ever so long at the African women's dreadlocks when I was a kid to just admiring the beauty that is usually shunned to wanting so much to go to Africa to enjoying the food and possibly the appreciation of everything African. Also flashback a couple of nights back when I felt so defensive over a very discriminating comment I heard referred to an African lass.
I am so behind Finance. My exam is a whopping 70% of the whole grade and I have about 2 days to study. Or should I say cram.
Of bloggin' it and fakin' it
Post-brunch. I'm at it again. I think I ate a tad too much couple of days back that when I woke up yesterday there was no flat tummy plus my top ten work outfits are lying in the laundry basket. Unironed. Pulled together what I can without any slight sign of undecency and headed out the door, no clue of what my train timetable is like for the new weekend opening time.
Ended up a.) leaving my jacket and b.) leaving my mobile phone. I didn't realize the latter boo boo until after my 7 hour shift. It was like being naked the whole day and not realizing it until nightfall. I had to close St. James 2 hours later so I was still in my reject clothes and still without a mobile.
>>Wynyard Friday open - late for 15 minutes, customer volume spread out for the whol emorning so there was hardly any extremely panicky period, had Maccas big breakfast after AGES of not having it and realized it's extremely small that I was still hungry afterwards but didn't give in to my hunger. And so straight after my shift I kept bugging Amanda to have laksa with me. We accomplished so much that day. Put everything in the merchandise wall so nothing's left lying around. Discovered new christmas mugs lying around. They are really cute. Put away stock cos they come in on Fridays.
>>Wynyard Friday close - after the laksa session with Mandy and Al, Al decided she didn't feel like working so I said I'll do her shift IF she goes to uni to print out my Finance notes. I don't fancy going to uni. Worked with Carlo, who used to be my supervisor in Balmain so it was cooooool. Albs dropped by in the arvo. That was a long overdue visit and he's actually lucky I covered for Al, otherwise he wouldn't really have anyone to visit. Haven't told him that yet as we were busy the time he popped by.
>>Wynyard Saturday open - I was about 3 minutes late, Casey came in 5 minutes after. He smsed me but I left my phone. We got our first few customers and then it was quiet. I put off doing my paperwork til midday cos I was being lazy. Casey bought apple mango from Coles so we were kinda feasting on it. I loved apple mango when I was a kid after having it once then. Never had another until yesterday. Ate too much again. Angelica called to say she can't work. @#$%^&^%$!!! And Casey offered to do the whole day. St. James called if we have someone to do a short filler shift and I told them I'll do it. I need $$.
>>Went to Transport House afterwards to 'study' but decided to read the papers.
>>St. James Saturday close - made me feel glad I did not transfer to St. James. Worked with a 2-month old partner and he was as bossy as if the world was given to him. Other partners are so-so and most customers either have their noses up in the air or are walking around with red eyes going "I need my coffee! I need my coffee!"
Was ever so hungry afterwards so I took the wraps from the pastry case. Had dinner with Al, then coffee whilst waiting for Rosa.
Then homebound. Then sleepy time.
- Floating (bright) ideas
Where one's instincts are found to be accurate, when theories become facts, I think it's better to underplay your abilities and fake it. My decisions to keep my sanity has stiffled a few revelations that would have been put out in the open way before. But I guess the delay played a big part in revealing more than was expressable. Hence the complications to the story.
My past once again threatened to haunt me. A mere play on the mind. Do I succumb? Do I give in? I hold firm to my ground and shall not waver.
More pieces to the puzzle coming soon. I can either pursue one path or wait for the other to open. There is still that mystery to be solved. But I have more clues.
Ended up a.) leaving my jacket and b.) leaving my mobile phone. I didn't realize the latter boo boo until after my 7 hour shift. It was like being naked the whole day and not realizing it until nightfall. I had to close St. James 2 hours later so I was still in my reject clothes and still without a mobile.
- Details of my four straight shifts
>>Wynyard Friday open - late for 15 minutes, customer volume spread out for the whol emorning so there was hardly any extremely panicky period, had Maccas big breakfast after AGES of not having it and realized it's extremely small that I was still hungry afterwards but didn't give in to my hunger. And so straight after my shift I kept bugging Amanda to have laksa with me. We accomplished so much that day. Put everything in the merchandise wall so nothing's left lying around. Discovered new christmas mugs lying around. They are really cute. Put away stock cos they come in on Fridays.
>>Wynyard Friday close - after the laksa session with Mandy and Al, Al decided she didn't feel like working so I said I'll do her shift IF she goes to uni to print out my Finance notes. I don't fancy going to uni. Worked with Carlo, who used to be my supervisor in Balmain so it was cooooool. Albs dropped by in the arvo. That was a long overdue visit and he's actually lucky I covered for Al, otherwise he wouldn't really have anyone to visit. Haven't told him that yet as we were busy the time he popped by.
>>Wynyard Saturday open - I was about 3 minutes late, Casey came in 5 minutes after. He smsed me but I left my phone. We got our first few customers and then it was quiet. I put off doing my paperwork til midday cos I was being lazy. Casey bought apple mango from Coles so we were kinda feasting on it. I loved apple mango when I was a kid after having it once then. Never had another until yesterday. Ate too much again. Angelica called to say she can't work. @#$%^&^%$!!! And Casey offered to do the whole day. St. James called if we have someone to do a short filler shift and I told them I'll do it. I need $$.
>>Went to Transport House afterwards to 'study' but decided to read the papers.
>>St. James Saturday close - made me feel glad I did not transfer to St. James. Worked with a 2-month old partner and he was as bossy as if the world was given to him. Other partners are so-so and most customers either have their noses up in the air or are walking around with red eyes going "I need my coffee! I need my coffee!"
Was ever so hungry afterwards so I took the wraps from the pastry case. Had dinner with Al, then coffee whilst waiting for Rosa.
Then homebound. Then sleepy time.
- Floating (bright) ideas
Where one's instincts are found to be accurate, when theories become facts, I think it's better to underplay your abilities and fake it. My decisions to keep my sanity has stiffled a few revelations that would have been put out in the open way before. But I guess the delay played a big part in revealing more than was expressable. Hence the complications to the story.
My past once again threatened to haunt me. A mere play on the mind. Do I succumb? Do I give in? I hold firm to my ground and shall not waver.
More pieces to the puzzle coming soon. I can either pursue one path or wait for the other to open. There is still that mystery to be solved. But I have more clues.
Friday, November 19, 2004
Jaded, weary or plain tired?
Surprisingly, I'm not that tired. Perhaps that's what change can do. I got about a couple days off from work so I can study for my law exam and then I did a 12-hour shift, exclusive of the accumulated 2 hours break across day parts.
Yesterday's exam wasn't so bad. It was pretty much like an open book one as it was an open legislation exam, with most of the questions referring to the Corporations Act. Finished at 11:30, just enough time to go through everything. I could have spent more time figuring out the last question but I'm pretty sure I will at least pass.
Afterwards I had to take it easy for a bit. Went shopping. Spent lots of time looking around. I was actually looking for shoes but ended up buying other things. Maybe after Wednesday's exam I'll go shopping again.
I think I'm tired now.
Yesterday's exam wasn't so bad. It was pretty much like an open book one as it was an open legislation exam, with most of the questions referring to the Corporations Act. Finished at 11:30, just enough time to go through everything. I could have spent more time figuring out the last question but I'm pretty sure I will at least pass.
Afterwards I had to take it easy for a bit. Went shopping. Spent lots of time looking around. I was actually looking for shoes but ended up buying other things. Maybe after Wednesday's exam I'll go shopping again.
I think I'm tired now.
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
seriously overwhelmed!
I haven't been in an interview for so long and I am invited to one next week! It's a volunteer editorial post for a newsletter which would be good for my resume. It's a freakish panel interview the morning of an exam day and so I have too many things going on for the next 2 weeks.
Meanwhile, I am still studying for my law exam tomorrow. I should be set soon. I don't want to study too much. Hopefully I get about 50%. I should be alright then.
Meanwhile, I am still studying for my law exam tomorrow. I should be set soon. I don't want to study too much. Hopefully I get about 50%. I should be alright then.
On a Hillsong/Tazo/Com Law High
The day wasn't so bad despite my ill-feelings towards exams and having to crew for TV production.
Had a humongous cuppa prior to heading out to my battlefield, trying to beat rush hour traffic in the process. Got there way earlier than everyone else. It was a 5-person crew but with 3 cameras creatively set so as to only need 2 operators. Cool, hey?
The program was excellent. It was on child sexual abuse. The 5 Ws and H answered plus prevention measures. Very educational and very psychological. Something I really appreciate. Got into a bit of a blab fest with Sophie and her friend Daisy on the way back to Central.
Cooked a bit, ate ever so much before launching into study mode, plus blabbers galore with my flatmate and endless cups of tea. Will probably eat some Maggi noodles later.
Currently chatting wiht someone I used to work with. What's exciting is that he's putting up a media company which I should be a part of. I don't know how this works yet but will find out soon.
It is at this stage when I think that there's only one big thing that's missing...
Had a humongous cuppa prior to heading out to my battlefield, trying to beat rush hour traffic in the process. Got there way earlier than everyone else. It was a 5-person crew but with 3 cameras creatively set so as to only need 2 operators. Cool, hey?
The program was excellent. It was on child sexual abuse. The 5 Ws and H answered plus prevention measures. Very educational and very psychological. Something I really appreciate. Got into a bit of a blab fest with Sophie and her friend Daisy on the way back to Central.
Cooked a bit, ate ever so much before launching into study mode, plus blabbers galore with my flatmate and endless cups of tea. Will probably eat some Maggi noodles later.
Currently chatting wiht someone I used to work with. What's exciting is that he's putting up a media company which I should be a part of. I don't know how this works yet but will find out soon.
It is at this stage when I think that there's only one big thing that's missing...
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
Burnt on the left side.
What life is this that you have to rewrite a lengthy blog over again? It's like accidentally deleting a very long email, an email you've put off writing for months just because you need all the time in the world to think and write and then you don't know which stupid computer key you pressed and everything's gone. Ack. That happened last night. I was too tired to rewrite the whole thing. Plus I couldn't remember most of what I wrote.
I'm starting to feel sick and I suspect it's cos I have a law exam coming up and I still have pretty much a whole book to go through. Not to mention the fact that yesterday most of what I ate is comprised of Starbucks food.
I spent most of yesterday morning sitting under the sun and going through my company law notes. Halfway through, chatted and gossiped away with Christine and then on to lunch and eventually work.
The air com at the W is still broken so we had to keep the back door open for proper ventilation. Worked with Casey. He was meant to be at Transport House but we all said he's better off working at Wynyard. I think I've been working too much with him cos sometimes I find myself talking like him. Worse, Alison noticed as well. Ooooops!
Lotsa visitors came by. One very good thing about Wynyard. I love that.
Last night was the last episode of Sex and The City. Came home to watch some Queer Eye Thanksgiving Spesh which is absolutely nice with all the trimmings and festivities. I love Thanksgiving. I think it should be a universal celebration. I just love the whole concept.
:)
I'm starting to feel sick and I suspect it's cos I have a law exam coming up and I still have pretty much a whole book to go through. Not to mention the fact that yesterday most of what I ate is comprised of Starbucks food.
I spent most of yesterday morning sitting under the sun and going through my company law notes. Halfway through, chatted and gossiped away with Christine and then on to lunch and eventually work.
The air com at the W is still broken so we had to keep the back door open for proper ventilation. Worked with Casey. He was meant to be at Transport House but we all said he's better off working at Wynyard. I think I've been working too much with him cos sometimes I find myself talking like him. Worse, Alison noticed as well. Ooooops!
Lotsa visitors came by. One very good thing about Wynyard. I love that.
Last night was the last episode of Sex and The City. Came home to watch some Queer Eye Thanksgiving Spesh which is absolutely nice with all the trimmings and festivities. I love Thanksgiving. I think it should be a universal celebration. I just love the whole concept.
:)
Monday, November 15, 2004
Let the cross draw man to You
==Work life
Did a close yesterday. It wasn't such a good day just cos a lot of things were left undone and I had to do it so as not to let it build up. I'm closing again today so even if I didn't get those things done, I'll still end up doing them anyway. Our store ceiling broke. It's long overdue, actually. An incident just waiting to happen as the airconditioning and ventillation system has been causing us problems during the warm days. Perhaps this time we'll get a cooler work environment in summer. Well I had to stay back an extra 30 minutes yesterday waiting for the builders to decide if they're gonna fix it or not.
On a more professional note, I think my manager hates me. It's mutual anyway so there's hardly any loss except that I couldn't get him to refer me if need be. I knew other top people but they're all gone now. It is as if I've outlived their Starbucks career. The reason why it's inevitable to bring this up is the upcoming performance review. This manager has a rep to downgrade everybody. I think I know the outcome of my review.
==Church life
After three weeks of not being on the TV crew roster, I'm back but I did a couple of major boo boos. The worship team sang a different first song from what was on the list as we didn't reconfirm the songs and so I had to try and think and then scramble to find that lost song and then skipped the first verse entirely cos it takes a longer time to do things when you panic.
The TV big wig in Hills is there as well and he is rather scary so I was scared. And then the speaker had a lot of media aids with him including video and power point. Of course I was only aware of the power point and took the wrong cue so my power point went on top of the video and I got the boss screaming "take it off! take it off" at me. Sorry doesn't really help much in those times.
And so I stuffed up the first service, which I think is not that big a deal should you be a member of the audience. I made up for it in the second service because we were all paying more attention and cues are more clear cut thus the powerpoint had perfect timing.
I redeemed myself but I still feel bad about the boo boos perhaps because I fell short of my own standards. They were honest mistakes though. I still tried my very best.
The cell group is now called the connect group and coincidentally I bumped into my connect group leader or should I say ex-connect group leader. It took her a while to recognize me and then when I asked her she said she's leading a different group now and everyone's just gone elsewhere. It was on the one had disappointing but on the other I had a clearer perspective of where things are.
It was like back to square one. But I did try. Do I still get an A for effort?
= The so-called normal life
This is perhaps the hardest thing to figure out, not knowing where things are meant to be. One day I hope things will fall into place. Maybe that's not so much wishful thinking because I know for a fact they will. It's just gonna be a matter of time. Then I wish that time will come really soon.
What lies ahead include finishing, getting a residency and looking for a job here on top of establishing a different sort of life. Ack. I guess I have exams to worry about still. I'll leave the other stuff for later.
Did a close yesterday. It wasn't such a good day just cos a lot of things were left undone and I had to do it so as not to let it build up. I'm closing again today so even if I didn't get those things done, I'll still end up doing them anyway. Our store ceiling broke. It's long overdue, actually. An incident just waiting to happen as the airconditioning and ventillation system has been causing us problems during the warm days. Perhaps this time we'll get a cooler work environment in summer. Well I had to stay back an extra 30 minutes yesterday waiting for the builders to decide if they're gonna fix it or not.
On a more professional note, I think my manager hates me. It's mutual anyway so there's hardly any loss except that I couldn't get him to refer me if need be. I knew other top people but they're all gone now. It is as if I've outlived their Starbucks career. The reason why it's inevitable to bring this up is the upcoming performance review. This manager has a rep to downgrade everybody. I think I know the outcome of my review.
==Church life
After three weeks of not being on the TV crew roster, I'm back but I did a couple of major boo boos. The worship team sang a different first song from what was on the list as we didn't reconfirm the songs and so I had to try and think and then scramble to find that lost song and then skipped the first verse entirely cos it takes a longer time to do things when you panic.
The TV big wig in Hills is there as well and he is rather scary so I was scared. And then the speaker had a lot of media aids with him including video and power point. Of course I was only aware of the power point and took the wrong cue so my power point went on top of the video and I got the boss screaming "take it off! take it off" at me. Sorry doesn't really help much in those times.
And so I stuffed up the first service, which I think is not that big a deal should you be a member of the audience. I made up for it in the second service because we were all paying more attention and cues are more clear cut thus the powerpoint had perfect timing.
I redeemed myself but I still feel bad about the boo boos perhaps because I fell short of my own standards. They were honest mistakes though. I still tried my very best.
The cell group is now called the connect group and coincidentally I bumped into my connect group leader or should I say ex-connect group leader. It took her a while to recognize me and then when I asked her she said she's leading a different group now and everyone's just gone elsewhere. It was on the one had disappointing but on the other I had a clearer perspective of where things are.
It was like back to square one. But I did try. Do I still get an A for effort?
= The so-called normal life
This is perhaps the hardest thing to figure out, not knowing where things are meant to be. One day I hope things will fall into place. Maybe that's not so much wishful thinking because I know for a fact they will. It's just gonna be a matter of time. Then I wish that time will come really soon.
What lies ahead include finishing, getting a residency and looking for a job here on top of establishing a different sort of life. Ack. I guess I have exams to worry about still. I'll leave the other stuff for later.
Saturday, November 13, 2004
bulging red eyes
Yesterday was my last ever accounting exam. It felt good. I thought the exam was alright and was actually feeling happy leaving the exam room when my friend told me that it was hard and he screwed it! I had to pause and wonder if my knowledge was so limited that I thought having responses for each question will just do. But nah, should be fine.
Went to Parramatta today to meet up with my prospective agent. I am so lost for words at the moment but the only thing I can say is I might end up getting her to do my papers.
Worked a full closing shift at Neutral Bay afterwards. Worked with the manager and a new dude who was really good for his first day and so I didn't have to stress at all and ended up doing the light jobs. The advantages of working with men.
However, I still feel awfully tired that I'd rather drown in my bed but I do have some things to do. Plus, I don't really want to sleep when I just ate.
But really, who cares.... zzzzzzz.....
Went to Parramatta today to meet up with my prospective agent. I am so lost for words at the moment but the only thing I can say is I might end up getting her to do my papers.
Worked a full closing shift at Neutral Bay afterwards. Worked with the manager and a new dude who was really good for his first day and so I didn't have to stress at all and ended up doing the light jobs. The advantages of working with men.
However, I still feel awfully tired that I'd rather drown in my bed but I do have some things to do. Plus, I don't really want to sleep when I just ate.
But really, who cares.... zzzzzzz.....
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
Caffeined out...
Starbucks is green. I've had too much caffeinated drinks today. We decided to try out the new tea at work. It's called Joy, which is a blend of black teas and oolong, with green tea. But it tastes a tad fruity. I love it but the rest of the Wynyard world doesn't. I brought a bunch home and Na loved it, too. I think my dad will appreciate it as well.
I've been studying. Was meant to go to cell but as much as I've tried (obviously not that hard), I didn't get any reply from my cell leader as to where she's having the cell meeting. Or maybe it's not on tonight cos of exams.
I finally got the hard copy of Concierge! Na was laughing cos I told her how I can't really show it to my mom cos I was writing for the Thirst section. I only wrote 1 article for that issue, a bit to my regret but then I was awfully tired that time plus I was holidaying in Queensland.
Shared a large Domino's pizza and some chicken strips with Na. Too full, too tired. Off to bed soon.
I've been studying. Was meant to go to cell but as much as I've tried (obviously not that hard), I didn't get any reply from my cell leader as to where she's having the cell meeting. Or maybe it's not on tonight cos of exams.
I finally got the hard copy of Concierge! Na was laughing cos I told her how I can't really show it to my mom cos I was writing for the Thirst section. I only wrote 1 article for that issue, a bit to my regret but then I was awfully tired that time plus I was holidaying in Queensland.
Shared a large Domino's pizza and some chicken strips with Na. Too full, too tired. Off to bed soon.
Monday, November 08, 2004
Three Shades of Black
Four days left to cram 6 weeks' worth of lecture in my puny brain. I am nervous alright, mainly because this is so not mu cup of tea but aside from all the agony of exam preparation, I only have 3 not my cups of tea left and then I'll pretty much be free.
But come to think of it, freedom can be scary because without the limitations, you're not guided as to which path to take. Having been used to such constrictions, sometimes freedom is way too much to the point that you feel lost.
Having said all that, I'm looking forward to change, scared as I may be. Summer's almost here. That is good.
I worked a measley 4 hour shift yesterday. And on a Sunday, I am rather left with a huge chunk of time in my hands between work and church. Translated to 11am til 5pm, where I decided to not go home but rather sit at the Quay and study.
Opened with Casey. I was happy I did not sleep in but he did. Pay back time, I guess. It was pretty busy for a Sunday at Wynyard. I hung around the store after my shift as Casey suggested and decided to read the papers while he tells me all his stories about his girl in the UK and the forthcoming Thailand trip.
I'd love to go to Thailand now especially after hearing they have a Forensics museum where the Thai cannibal was preserved. I bet Josc would love that sorta thrill, too! There's also a whole lotta thai food so it's all good. Whoever goes there will be happy and content nonetheless.
My study locations are mostly strategically picked. This time, the Quay works for me because the sun has been up as of late and well I wanted to get my dose of vitamin D and I guess enjoy the open space. So I sat on the sun and because of the brollies around the open area, I burned two arms to varying degrees. One is more burnt than the other. Haha!
This week's gonna be rather rainy. I guess I have to study hard to keep my mind off the weather.
Church was good. Met a few new friends and bumped into Jess from cell. She didn't recognize me at first but I went up to her to say hi and ended up chatting a tad until we reach our respective platforms in central station.
Too bad she won't be in our cell now. She did encourage me to attend cell again. I guess there's my answer to that never ending question. I wish everything will be at least as clear cut as that.
Saturday was jazz day with Na, had a bit of a walk around the Rocks markets, ended up at The Orient for lunch. It was actually impressive despite the stinky pub on the ground floor. Going up to the restaurant was like going on a time travel, back to the 18th century. I had a small pumpkin on my plate. It was very halloweeny.
Read the papers and did a bit of studying at Transport House and the Quay then went to see Zhang Yimou's Hero with Rosa and Na at night.
The movie was fantastic. I won't give it my highest rating but still it's excellent. I've read Saturday's and Sunday's newspaper review, which I wasn't happy with as these were clearly Western perspectives, ignorant of what the Chinese culture is about, without even trying to research a bit on it.
I reckon an Eastern flick has to be judged based mainly on Eastern standards because whatever meaning it has is based on its roots and not some far fetched culture from who knows where. Saturday's review was more neutral and unbiased, with the attempt to understand Zhang Yimou's style and substance. Sunday's review was trashy, big-mouthed without any sense of open-mindedness.
I think the movie harped on a lot of Chinese values, not to mention the arts. Martial arts is meant to be pleasing to the eyes, thus the graceful movements. The colors, I'm sure stands for something rather than just a pure display of spectacular colors and the cinematography is very apt. It does not draw attention to itself, rather aids in showing the viewers what they need to understand the story better. It is the audience's window to the actual spectacle of the scenes.
I had a think about Yes Asia because of all this Hero business. As Iw as about to write for them I had to pick up a Chinese Cinema book to study Chinese film before I go around blabbering what I think of Chinese films, considering the audience for Yes Asia are gonna be mainly Chinese. After Hero, I felt like I have a certain knowledge imbedded in me by my upbringing, something unconsciously passed on from my ancestors to me. It made me more confident to go for such assignments because no matter how many influences I have been subject to, I still have that understanding for traditional Chinese values which makes a lot of sense to me.
And yeah Quentin Tarantino learned from Zhang Yimou, not the other way around.
But come to think of it, freedom can be scary because without the limitations, you're not guided as to which path to take. Having been used to such constrictions, sometimes freedom is way too much to the point that you feel lost.
Having said all that, I'm looking forward to change, scared as I may be. Summer's almost here. That is good.
I worked a measley 4 hour shift yesterday. And on a Sunday, I am rather left with a huge chunk of time in my hands between work and church. Translated to 11am til 5pm, where I decided to not go home but rather sit at the Quay and study.
Opened with Casey. I was happy I did not sleep in but he did. Pay back time, I guess. It was pretty busy for a Sunday at Wynyard. I hung around the store after my shift as Casey suggested and decided to read the papers while he tells me all his stories about his girl in the UK and the forthcoming Thailand trip.
I'd love to go to Thailand now especially after hearing they have a Forensics museum where the Thai cannibal was preserved. I bet Josc would love that sorta thrill, too! There's also a whole lotta thai food so it's all good. Whoever goes there will be happy and content nonetheless.
My study locations are mostly strategically picked. This time, the Quay works for me because the sun has been up as of late and well I wanted to get my dose of vitamin D and I guess enjoy the open space. So I sat on the sun and because of the brollies around the open area, I burned two arms to varying degrees. One is more burnt than the other. Haha!
This week's gonna be rather rainy. I guess I have to study hard to keep my mind off the weather.
Church was good. Met a few new friends and bumped into Jess from cell. She didn't recognize me at first but I went up to her to say hi and ended up chatting a tad until we reach our respective platforms in central station.
Too bad she won't be in our cell now. She did encourage me to attend cell again. I guess there's my answer to that never ending question. I wish everything will be at least as clear cut as that.
Saturday was jazz day with Na, had a bit of a walk around the Rocks markets, ended up at The Orient for lunch. It was actually impressive despite the stinky pub on the ground floor. Going up to the restaurant was like going on a time travel, back to the 18th century. I had a small pumpkin on my plate. It was very halloweeny.
Read the papers and did a bit of studying at Transport House and the Quay then went to see Zhang Yimou's Hero with Rosa and Na at night.
The movie was fantastic. I won't give it my highest rating but still it's excellent. I've read Saturday's and Sunday's newspaper review, which I wasn't happy with as these were clearly Western perspectives, ignorant of what the Chinese culture is about, without even trying to research a bit on it.
I reckon an Eastern flick has to be judged based mainly on Eastern standards because whatever meaning it has is based on its roots and not some far fetched culture from who knows where. Saturday's review was more neutral and unbiased, with the attempt to understand Zhang Yimou's style and substance. Sunday's review was trashy, big-mouthed without any sense of open-mindedness.
I think the movie harped on a lot of Chinese values, not to mention the arts. Martial arts is meant to be pleasing to the eyes, thus the graceful movements. The colors, I'm sure stands for something rather than just a pure display of spectacular colors and the cinematography is very apt. It does not draw attention to itself, rather aids in showing the viewers what they need to understand the story better. It is the audience's window to the actual spectacle of the scenes.
I had a think about Yes Asia because of all this Hero business. As Iw as about to write for them I had to pick up a Chinese Cinema book to study Chinese film before I go around blabbering what I think of Chinese films, considering the audience for Yes Asia are gonna be mainly Chinese. After Hero, I felt like I have a certain knowledge imbedded in me by my upbringing, something unconsciously passed on from my ancestors to me. It made me more confident to go for such assignments because no matter how many influences I have been subject to, I still have that understanding for traditional Chinese values which makes a lot of sense to me.
And yeah Quentin Tarantino learned from Zhang Yimou, not the other way around.
Thursday, November 04, 2004
Caffeine Count for Thursday: 5 shots of espresso in 3 cups of coffee
That's less than half the dose of caffeine I used to take in. And today, only one shot in a cup was caffeinated because I couldn't take soy nor much dairy, the stuff that can mellow caffeine down a tad. Decaf in a black is ok. I guess that's what I'll be having for a while. :I
Finally booked my 'rents' accomodation for the upcoming NY. Really close to the sights - bridge and all. I just love it. I had to hang around Kirribilli waiting for mom to ring me back so I had my mocha with my consolidation review. It wasn't that productive but I enjoyed the olden, character-filled ambience of the Freckled Face Cafe. Wish I discovered them sooner.
Headed up to Starbucks North Sydney after the accomplishment of my Milsons Point agenda. I was meant to meet Jenny at noon but she texted to inform me she's gonna be a tad late. Decided to pop by early anyhoo cos I still owe Yuki a visit. She used to work in Transport House. She's a lovely girl.
Jenny and I had lunch in Billy Blue cos her sister's supervising the function. Fab food for like half the price. It was excellent in terms of flavor, not to mention healthy as I had fish and a good plentiful serving of veggies. We had our usual coffee after a meal thang but headed to St. James for that. Had a good chat with the coffee and everything else.
Off to uni thereafter. It was my last and final class for my MCom (Master of Commerce). Woohoo! Can't believe it! I'm almost done! Just gotta sit through three exam papers and that's it! The class lasted an hour and spent another hour chatting with a couple of my classmates.
Jazz afterwards was pretty good and i felt good considering it was humid and we were sweating a bit too much. It was quite a work-out in that sense.
There was something about yesterday and how I picked where I want to sit. in Company Law class I conveniently forgot how this one girl can be really noisy. For one she talks way too much and another thing is, she's got a semi-booming voice that when you sit in front of her, your ears will just hurt. Oh well, I sat in front of her and couldn't move anywhere else because someone sat on the other side already and there's nowhere else I can move where I can still see the slides. But she didn't talk all that much so it wasn't that bad.
I took the bus from uni to Central and sat beside this dude near the rear door. I like that spot cos you get some air when the door opens and it's not all that stuffy. But that dude smelled like snot! The bus was pretty full so I couldn't transfer seats. I kept wishing we'd reach Central sooner and for a while there I thought I smelled like snot, too. EEEEWWWW.
And then today, on my way to the city from uni, a strange lady was behind me murmuring and yawning out loud the whole time. Ack!
Interesting people in Sydney. I'm too stressed, I just have to find ways to be amused.
Finally booked my 'rents' accomodation for the upcoming NY. Really close to the sights - bridge and all. I just love it. I had to hang around Kirribilli waiting for mom to ring me back so I had my mocha with my consolidation review. It wasn't that productive but I enjoyed the olden, character-filled ambience of the Freckled Face Cafe. Wish I discovered them sooner.
Headed up to Starbucks North Sydney after the accomplishment of my Milsons Point agenda. I was meant to meet Jenny at noon but she texted to inform me she's gonna be a tad late. Decided to pop by early anyhoo cos I still owe Yuki a visit. She used to work in Transport House. She's a lovely girl.
Jenny and I had lunch in Billy Blue cos her sister's supervising the function. Fab food for like half the price. It was excellent in terms of flavor, not to mention healthy as I had fish and a good plentiful serving of veggies. We had our usual coffee after a meal thang but headed to St. James for that. Had a good chat with the coffee and everything else.
Off to uni thereafter. It was my last and final class for my MCom (Master of Commerce). Woohoo! Can't believe it! I'm almost done! Just gotta sit through three exam papers and that's it! The class lasted an hour and spent another hour chatting with a couple of my classmates.
Jazz afterwards was pretty good and i felt good considering it was humid and we were sweating a bit too much. It was quite a work-out in that sense.
There was something about yesterday and how I picked where I want to sit. in Company Law class I conveniently forgot how this one girl can be really noisy. For one she talks way too much and another thing is, she's got a semi-booming voice that when you sit in front of her, your ears will just hurt. Oh well, I sat in front of her and couldn't move anywhere else because someone sat on the other side already and there's nowhere else I can move where I can still see the slides. But she didn't talk all that much so it wasn't that bad.
I took the bus from uni to Central and sat beside this dude near the rear door. I like that spot cos you get some air when the door opens and it's not all that stuffy. But that dude smelled like snot! The bus was pretty full so I couldn't transfer seats. I kept wishing we'd reach Central sooner and for a while there I thought I smelled like snot, too. EEEEWWWW.
And then today, on my way to the city from uni, a strange lady was behind me murmuring and yawning out loud the whole time. Ack!
Interesting people in Sydney. I'm too stressed, I just have to find ways to be amused.
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
From one end of the spectrum to the other
This is just about the right time to panic. My world is caving in. I have all these important things to do that has to be done simultaneously. FYI, Ivannah, this is where the checklist comes in.
My weekend was okay. Slept in Saturday when I had to work so I was a good 45 minutes late. I spent the previous night debugging my system and burning CDs. Good thing I took time burning those little comedy things for Casey because I was going to be late for work. He had to wait for me for let's say more than half an hour when the previous time we worked together on a Saturday I was an hour late. He realized that there was a pattern.
I was rather whacked on Sunday. First day of daylight saving time and so I felt jetlagged for no apparent reason. Strange strange strange... Working with Tim was good nonetheless. Waited for the train together as we finished work. He's a good kid.
This is where my work-related full time/part time debate comes in. After weighing the consequences, I'd rather stay part time. Come to think of it, I do not really like the company anymore. So much for having mission statements. They're just there for display. I guess that holds true for most companies.
Looking back this time last year, I revisited the utter shitty-ness of waht management has given me, with all due respect to the mission statement and to me as a person. Perhaps transferring stores was good for me because it subjected me to a lot of trials unknown to the previous store. However, I've really been with the company too long.
I need the kind of change everybody is afraid of. I need to move on, to take steps. And yeah I am taking steps to as far as I can reach. I've had it with being bossed around by people who are only better than me when it comes to work rights. Such is life, though. I guess I've had it with all that.
On the brighter side of things, I met Christine in class today when she was meant to go to Monday night's class. It was such a blessing to talk to her because we share pretty much the same concerns and we were both able to untangle the ropes of stress and just empathize with each other. Not in the utterly emotional sense, of course. It was more like a wake up call for me. I felt so taken care of by someone way above.
Concierge's finally released the first edition! FINALLY! And so I am an official writer with an Australian magazine to show! I left my Manila magazines at home. I can't even remeber where they are.
Got to chat with Amy from Melbourne after a long time. It's public holiday down there and it took me HOURS to figure out why... Melbourne Cup! So many ladies wearing fancy hats around, so many drunks (according to Na).
I did a bit of grocery shopping, cooked, ate a lot, washed up, read a bit, hogged the internet access and now possibly off to study and eventually sleep.
My weekend was okay. Slept in Saturday when I had to work so I was a good 45 minutes late. I spent the previous night debugging my system and burning CDs. Good thing I took time burning those little comedy things for Casey because I was going to be late for work. He had to wait for me for let's say more than half an hour when the previous time we worked together on a Saturday I was an hour late. He realized that there was a pattern.
I was rather whacked on Sunday. First day of daylight saving time and so I felt jetlagged for no apparent reason. Strange strange strange... Working with Tim was good nonetheless. Waited for the train together as we finished work. He's a good kid.
This is where my work-related full time/part time debate comes in. After weighing the consequences, I'd rather stay part time. Come to think of it, I do not really like the company anymore. So much for having mission statements. They're just there for display. I guess that holds true for most companies.
Looking back this time last year, I revisited the utter shitty-ness of waht management has given me, with all due respect to the mission statement and to me as a person. Perhaps transferring stores was good for me because it subjected me to a lot of trials unknown to the previous store. However, I've really been with the company too long.
I need the kind of change everybody is afraid of. I need to move on, to take steps. And yeah I am taking steps to as far as I can reach. I've had it with being bossed around by people who are only better than me when it comes to work rights. Such is life, though. I guess I've had it with all that.
On the brighter side of things, I met Christine in class today when she was meant to go to Monday night's class. It was such a blessing to talk to her because we share pretty much the same concerns and we were both able to untangle the ropes of stress and just empathize with each other. Not in the utterly emotional sense, of course. It was more like a wake up call for me. I felt so taken care of by someone way above.
Concierge's finally released the first edition! FINALLY! And so I am an official writer with an Australian magazine to show! I left my Manila magazines at home. I can't even remeber where they are.
Got to chat with Amy from Melbourne after a long time. It's public holiday down there and it took me HOURS to figure out why... Melbourne Cup! So many ladies wearing fancy hats around, so many drunks (according to Na).
I did a bit of grocery shopping, cooked, ate a lot, washed up, read a bit, hogged the internet access and now possibly off to study and eventually sleep.
Friday, October 29, 2004
Top of the Pops!
I remember the time when I was so music-oriented. I had this longing for playing the drums plus I was glued to MTV and Channel V, watching those award shows several times (as they tend to get a bit more airtime than you'd imagine) and reading up mostly on UK teeny boppy pop magazines (Smash Hits, TOTP and the like - can't really remember the titles now). I guess those were the days. I knew the pop/rock genre so well that I knew pretty much where each artist is coming from and what's happening to who. That was one season of my life.
I still love music although I do not possess the same obssession, and I still love CDs and though I earn a bit of money now, I'm still as picky as I was before when it comes to buying them. Just bought a couple of CDs today. I find CD shopping to be relieving. Very therapeutic for some reasons.
Tuesday I intended to run some errands for mom but as I checked something with her, she said, "what if we decide to not head down to Sydney and you come home instead?"
My world suddenly shook. The compartamentalized clockwork I operate with just got shaken. I didn't know what to say but decided to dig through the reasons and justify my side. We basically left it hanging.
Next day, mom took a step towards getting me to go home and I reacted rather negatively but it was never confirmed. Up until now I don't know what to think. However, I shoved the thought aside and decided to leave it there for now and just wait and see until we get to the time when that matter will once again demand my attention.
I slept in between work and uni that day. Was meant to wake up at 4pm to get ready for my 6pm class but alas, I slept through the alarm and woke up at 6pm! Made a mad dash for uni but didn't get there until 7:15pm due to heavy traffic. Decided to wait until half time and the break when I can sneak in unnoticed but they never went on a break.
And so I ended up going to the library to find Pauline and her roomie there, went to dinner with Al and then had coffee prior to calling it a day.
Yesterday I was rostered to work at Transport House with Jen, the new supervisor. I do not really know her and I shall hold all judgment about her until such time when she gets on my nerves or makes me really happy or something along that spectrum.
She wasn't there at 10 past so I decided to ring Roy. I didn't have Jen's number. But I have Christine's who's meant to come at 8am. It was Roy's day-off, too but why did I decide to ring Roy? I did not really have to debate in my head about who to ring. I just did it instinctively and it is a bit of a rage release. I'm exaggerating.
To cut the long story short, Roy came in because he couldn't get in touch with Jen but he didn't have a key cos he forgot until the very last second that he gave it to another girl. The search for a key was a bit on the frustrating side and so we ended up having to wait for Ms. Christine to come and just opened the store at 8am. As soon as we got in.
The big question as to whether I should stay on or go elsewhere still lingers.
Uni was boring yesterday. I was nodding off for like an hour and a half, out of 2 hours. I still tried to take down notes. Went for Jazz with Amy afterwards which was heaps and heaps of fun. I was overly hyper until the euphoric effect died down and I felt once again that I am tired and sleepy.
I still love music although I do not possess the same obssession, and I still love CDs and though I earn a bit of money now, I'm still as picky as I was before when it comes to buying them. Just bought a couple of CDs today. I find CD shopping to be relieving. Very therapeutic for some reasons.
Tuesday I intended to run some errands for mom but as I checked something with her, she said, "what if we decide to not head down to Sydney and you come home instead?"
My world suddenly shook. The compartamentalized clockwork I operate with just got shaken. I didn't know what to say but decided to dig through the reasons and justify my side. We basically left it hanging.
Next day, mom took a step towards getting me to go home and I reacted rather negatively but it was never confirmed. Up until now I don't know what to think. However, I shoved the thought aside and decided to leave it there for now and just wait and see until we get to the time when that matter will once again demand my attention.
I slept in between work and uni that day. Was meant to wake up at 4pm to get ready for my 6pm class but alas, I slept through the alarm and woke up at 6pm! Made a mad dash for uni but didn't get there until 7:15pm due to heavy traffic. Decided to wait until half time and the break when I can sneak in unnoticed but they never went on a break.
And so I ended up going to the library to find Pauline and her roomie there, went to dinner with Al and then had coffee prior to calling it a day.
Yesterday I was rostered to work at Transport House with Jen, the new supervisor. I do not really know her and I shall hold all judgment about her until such time when she gets on my nerves or makes me really happy or something along that spectrum.
She wasn't there at 10 past so I decided to ring Roy. I didn't have Jen's number. But I have Christine's who's meant to come at 8am. It was Roy's day-off, too but why did I decide to ring Roy? I did not really have to debate in my head about who to ring. I just did it instinctively and it is a bit of a rage release. I'm exaggerating.
To cut the long story short, Roy came in because he couldn't get in touch with Jen but he didn't have a key cos he forgot until the very last second that he gave it to another girl. The search for a key was a bit on the frustrating side and so we ended up having to wait for Ms. Christine to come and just opened the store at 8am. As soon as we got in.
The big question as to whether I should stay on or go elsewhere still lingers.
Uni was boring yesterday. I was nodding off for like an hour and a half, out of 2 hours. I still tried to take down notes. Went for Jazz with Amy afterwards which was heaps and heaps of fun. I was overly hyper until the euphoric effect died down and I felt once again that I am tired and sleepy.
Monday, October 25, 2004
Aging Gracefully
Had a chat session with my flatmate last night. I'm glad she's around, perhaps as glad as she is that I am around. God's provision. I never knew she was coming when I decided to head down under and we weren't even friends. In fact she didn't ahve any idea who I was until she came here. Okay maybe at the rearest of her subconscious she did but we officially met when she first landed on Sydney soil.
We talked about the fleeting time, how in Sydney each year is so different from the next. In the Ivannah world, each year is like a different movie from the others that preceeded or succeeded it. Not radically different but just different in a lot of little ways that make up a rather significant difference. I change with the times but overall I'm still the same person inside with perhaps evolving views and principles but pretty much rooted on the same base beliefs.
And with time comes age and how it just becomes numbers becoming less significant than they used to be that sometimes I even have to pause a while and think 'how old am I again?' But then I don't really go oh I'm old and 24 and really fret about it because I've realized how much I value what I've been through in life and everything else that came with the aging process.
I read this article from the weekend paper (I still don't read the papers unless they're society and lifestyle-related!) about age and beauty where at that certain age you just grow and appreciate the attractiveness of an old person.
I leaned back and thought about how I used to prefer going on homestay with grannies than anything because I see them as people with real concerns, with a life before them that is so different from mine. They've walked through a lot of paths I've never even seen and I appreciate stories and adventures like reading Charles Dickens and admire the greatness of the wisdom that comes alongside life's journeys.
Sunday, October 24, 2004
cakes and board games
Work: Rocked up exactly at 1pm, JUST in time for my shift, and JUST as Timo was getting busy. It was an interesting shift despite the inevident boredom that has always existed in the arvos at the W.
I haven't worked with Timo in a while perhaps because I prefer the morning shifts and he seems to have problems getting up early and thus having him on too early equals asking for trouble. Yeah I've told him off a good number of times. So this was seemingly catch up session. But then again, with me and Timo there seems to be a generation gap. One that can exist between a mom and her son or an aunt and her nephew. Go figure.
I find that boy an interesting character nonetheless. He's an artsy fartsy trying to conform to the typical granny Asian mold. I wish his mind can wander a little bit, perhaps his current outlet isn't that effective. I'd like to see what happens to him five years down the track.
The after-work: Had to wait a good 35 minutes for the Lindfield bus to go to Amy's. And kaboom, they were still in the process of MAKING dumplings so me and Al lazed around as Amy, Casey and Rosa did all the work. And then dinner was served. It felt like a Honkie movie was unfolding right before my very eyes. If I learn Canto ever so soon, I won't be surprised.
Had a game of Monopoly which was fun, not only because I won and was the only one left with a bunch of 500s. I've always liked the game. I remember making my dad buy me one and we used to play it as a family. It was cool. Seemingly like a game of real life. Today's game made me wish the game can determine how well you'll do in real life. Yeah right. =) It was good to play the game. I didn't wanna leave Amy's until someone went bankrupt. Yeah I was the recepient of the lot. Haha!
The morning after: Got Hillsong TV int he morning. Early call time, yes but since I slept in so bad today I figure I can stay up tonight. Busy day tomorrow but I'm glad it's gonna be the end of the weekend. Yeah I'm being sarcastic. Not! Hoping next week is gonna be nice and sunny.
Stuff: Finals coming up sooner than ever, got important decisions to be made. Pray I make wise decisions this time and weigh the odds more sensibly. Stop fretting, take a chill pill, trust.
I haven't worked with Timo in a while perhaps because I prefer the morning shifts and he seems to have problems getting up early and thus having him on too early equals asking for trouble. Yeah I've told him off a good number of times. So this was seemingly catch up session. But then again, with me and Timo there seems to be a generation gap. One that can exist between a mom and her son or an aunt and her nephew. Go figure.
I find that boy an interesting character nonetheless. He's an artsy fartsy trying to conform to the typical granny Asian mold. I wish his mind can wander a little bit, perhaps his current outlet isn't that effective. I'd like to see what happens to him five years down the track.
The after-work: Had to wait a good 35 minutes for the Lindfield bus to go to Amy's. And kaboom, they were still in the process of MAKING dumplings so me and Al lazed around as Amy, Casey and Rosa did all the work. And then dinner was served. It felt like a Honkie movie was unfolding right before my very eyes. If I learn Canto ever so soon, I won't be surprised.
Had a game of Monopoly which was fun, not only because I won and was the only one left with a bunch of 500s. I've always liked the game. I remember making my dad buy me one and we used to play it as a family. It was cool. Seemingly like a game of real life. Today's game made me wish the game can determine how well you'll do in real life. Yeah right. =) It was good to play the game. I didn't wanna leave Amy's until someone went bankrupt. Yeah I was the recepient of the lot. Haha!
The morning after: Got Hillsong TV int he morning. Early call time, yes but since I slept in so bad today I figure I can stay up tonight. Busy day tomorrow but I'm glad it's gonna be the end of the weekend. Yeah I'm being sarcastic. Not! Hoping next week is gonna be nice and sunny.
Stuff: Finals coming up sooner than ever, got important decisions to be made. Pray I make wise decisions this time and weigh the odds more sensibly. Stop fretting, take a chill pill, trust.
Thursday, October 21, 2004
Rainy days, wash away my gloom
Rocked up the lecture hall 5 past the designated time. Put a fair bit of mint into my mouth to mask that pesto flavor from that dearly-priced serving of pasta I had a few minutes in between so-called classes.
All was well. My mind drifted from Company Law cases to my lecturer's wisecracks to dancing when my mind suddenly played a bunch of songs as if it went auto-pilot. I was stupid enough not to bring a brolly when these days are like Asian monsoon season. I told a friend how I was running in filo mode when it was so filo to bot bring a brolly when you've got a jacket. Besides, it wasn't raining when I left home. And I was mainly indoors.
Oh well, I'm home now so it's good. Felt like I need a good hour jumping around and stuff but the autoplay sequence in my head went away. Somehow, the playlist was deleted from memory. I was trying not to eat anymore cos it's gonna be my fourth meal but hey I still ate. Had a pear plus a couple of bickies. It's alright.
Weather's really hopeless at the moment. I kept trying to divert my mind to happy thoughts (e.g. how rain is good for the drought and really kiddie thinking such as the flowers will be smiling cos they're being watered). Oh well. Seasons come and seasons go.
I haven't been very productive except for the housework part of things where I FINALLY ironed my mountain of clean but aren't so clean looking clothes. I thought I'd write my CD reviews but alas I can't do research at the moment cos my internet connection's BAAAAD! And it's just plain annoying to research in such unfortunate conditions.
I was unleashing the dragon in me yesterday but I decided to keep it still and think of it no more. Once again, it's been an interesting year. I grew up because I had my struggles.
The grass will always look greener on the other side.
All was well. My mind drifted from Company Law cases to my lecturer's wisecracks to dancing when my mind suddenly played a bunch of songs as if it went auto-pilot. I was stupid enough not to bring a brolly when these days are like Asian monsoon season. I told a friend how I was running in filo mode when it was so filo to bot bring a brolly when you've got a jacket. Besides, it wasn't raining when I left home. And I was mainly indoors.
Oh well, I'm home now so it's good. Felt like I need a good hour jumping around and stuff but the autoplay sequence in my head went away. Somehow, the playlist was deleted from memory. I was trying not to eat anymore cos it's gonna be my fourth meal but hey I still ate. Had a pear plus a couple of bickies. It's alright.
Weather's really hopeless at the moment. I kept trying to divert my mind to happy thoughts (e.g. how rain is good for the drought and really kiddie thinking such as the flowers will be smiling cos they're being watered). Oh well. Seasons come and seasons go.
I haven't been very productive except for the housework part of things where I FINALLY ironed my mountain of clean but aren't so clean looking clothes. I thought I'd write my CD reviews but alas I can't do research at the moment cos my internet connection's BAAAAD! And it's just plain annoying to research in such unfortunate conditions.
I was unleashing the dragon in me yesterday but I decided to keep it still and think of it no more. Once again, it's been an interesting year. I grew up because I had my struggles.
The grass will always look greener on the other side.
Monday, October 18, 2004
"you keep me sane"
Purpley purpley...
Amy decided to cancel Jazz class but it's ok. I'm still getting my good ending.
It seems like whenever one chapter ends another one starts straightaway. However, each chapter seems to have it's own plot. There is the antagonist and the protagonist, plus all complications therein.
I hate it when people do not have commonsense! It's quite pointless to open your mouth and say something out of nothingness, what more say something out of nothingness and annoy the hell out of other people?
I'm still glad today's first chapter ended fine. I guess for one honesty is the key and really if you find true friends they'll be there come hail or thundering skies.
I've come to realize how sick of work I am becoming, plus the fact that I do long for change. November 10 will mark my one year in Wynyard, not to mention my 2 years and 4 months plus in the company. Ugh!
My Master of Commerce might not be my last student endeavor after all. I came across a Media Sales Cadetship program which is for residents but it guarantees your foot into the media door provided you do well in the course. They start at the beginning of each year and so I passed the info on to Carlo for now and we'll see what it can do for moi when my time comes.
Future seems bright.
Amy decided to cancel Jazz class but it's ok. I'm still getting my good ending.
It seems like whenever one chapter ends another one starts straightaway. However, each chapter seems to have it's own plot. There is the antagonist and the protagonist, plus all complications therein.
I hate it when people do not have commonsense! It's quite pointless to open your mouth and say something out of nothingness, what more say something out of nothingness and annoy the hell out of other people?
I'm still glad today's first chapter ended fine. I guess for one honesty is the key and really if you find true friends they'll be there come hail or thundering skies.
I've come to realize how sick of work I am becoming, plus the fact that I do long for change. November 10 will mark my one year in Wynyard, not to mention my 2 years and 4 months plus in the company. Ugh!
My Master of Commerce might not be my last student endeavor after all. I came across a Media Sales Cadetship program which is for residents but it guarantees your foot into the media door provided you do well in the course. They start at the beginning of each year and so I passed the info on to Carlo for now and we'll see what it can do for moi when my time comes.
Future seems bright.
The Battle of the Conscience
In the midst of all the happenings, this is definitely Not Fun.
Weather's weird with probably 90% chance of rain and no sun. Ugh. And so I declare it a Starbucks day. A date with my Finance Book.
Yeah it's definitely time to crack the book.
Ending the night with some Jazzy work-out. Should be a good finish to the forseeable sucky day.
Yesterday was rather boring. Tried to study at home but ended up dozing off. However, did go off to Hills to do the wonderful TV stuff. A good finish nonetheless.
Todaloo.
Weather's weird with probably 90% chance of rain and no sun. Ugh. And so I declare it a Starbucks day. A date with my Finance Book.
Yeah it's definitely time to crack the book.
Ending the night with some Jazzy work-out. Should be a good finish to the forseeable sucky day.
Yesterday was rather boring. Tried to study at home but ended up dozing off. However, did go off to Hills to do the wonderful TV stuff. A good finish nonetheless.
Todaloo.
Sunday, October 17, 2004
Jog, Skip, Hop [more thoughts on the day that has just gone by]
\\ James
An English lady came in the store with her little boy asking for lollies. I had to give her the whole Aussie Quarantine issue bit again to explain as to why we do not and cannot get lollies (or after-coffee mints) into the country. Then the lady turned to her son and said "Sorry James, they don't have it." And they decided to check out our lovely pastry case for that 'something else.' Little James' eyes landed on the OJ which I passed on to mum whilst Casey gave them a straw on her request. They grabbed a few other things and little James had stuck his straw behind his ear and was showing it off as if he had a cool new headgear on. It was really cute. I was thinking more along the lines of him being a potential performer of some sort when he grows up.
One of the little pleasantries of work. And life, I might add.
\\ That caffeinated bit
I had three shots of espresso during the first half of my shift, of course, diluted with light soy. That probably released my happy hormones. Pretty good except I didn't get much studying done.I still enjoy my coffee but hey it's a marvel how I do not have to have it each day of my life.
Some things do change.
\\ On best friends
My theory is, there is that spectrum of best friends in general and different people just lie on different spots. Very subjective interpretation but hey it's good to have one that's close to the David-Jonathan (in reference to the Bible) sort of friendship. They're all friends and perhaps calling someone your best friend is like putting a stricter label that may come with certain exceptations some people choose not to deal with. If the so-called best friend fails to live up to some ground rules, it's just way worse than if that person is just one of those people u call your friend. Ack.
Yeah, such is life. Am I quoting myself or a terrible cliche?
\\ Expressions
"Like hello!?!" from Casey is "like heller!?!" from Carlo. Just created a whole laughing madness out of those. I wonder if Casey got that from Carlo. He didn't have a clue. I know I got my "oh my goodness!" spiel from Na. I didn't realize until I heard her say it. Where else could I have gotten it from? It's funny how different people influence you in many different ways and well it follows that the more time you spend with a certain person the more his or her mannerisms and ways become more akin to yours. Perhaps afterwards that is how you gauge how much a person has been a part of you.
And there you trace the intricate patterns of intertwined human lives.
\\ Live and RELIV
My parents have been taking food supplements in the form of health drinks and they got me some to take. I hated it at first but now they're not that bad. Halfway through those things. I don't really know what they do but one thing's for sure, I still have to cut down on food and exercise more. It's just annoying how you can't fit into your old pair of jeans anymore. Rosa misses her Rugby, too. Casey gave me his guest passes to the gym. Have yet to try them out. I think I might stick to Jazz and just do a tad more on my own. What Rugby is to Rosa is what Jazz dance is to moi.
I'd like to stick to doing the artsy fartsy stuff.
\\ The psychological stuff
I could have pressed a replay button somewhere. I tend to do the 'this time last year' portion as in MTV or Rick Dees and the like portions and get some thinking going.It's either I torment myself about something to the point of boredom thus overcome the whole greatness of such thought or flow into the fantastic boundaries of possibilities and what if's that I encourage my mental creativity to flourish within. I reckon that's how my 'graphological specimen' changes every now and again.
It's all a matter of how you think and where you place yourself in the picture.
\\ ..whatevers..
I felt bad for preferring weekdays over weekends here. Bad because it felt so abnormal. Had a bonding session with Na over brunch yesterday at New Orleans Cafe somewhere down the next neighborhood. I raised my appreciation for weekdays saying how it was like there is serenity over the whole nation and there is order in the sense that each and every person had their own little thing to do. It was utopia for me and to my surprise, it was for Na as well.
As I always say, great minds think alike.
I'd be having this end of student life celebration after my exams. It should be fun. So far my whole year's planned out.
Christmas is still a bit of a mystery, as is my publishing career. Again.No biggie though.
An English lady came in the store with her little boy asking for lollies. I had to give her the whole Aussie Quarantine issue bit again to explain as to why we do not and cannot get lollies (or after-coffee mints) into the country. Then the lady turned to her son and said "Sorry James, they don't have it." And they decided to check out our lovely pastry case for that 'something else.' Little James' eyes landed on the OJ which I passed on to mum whilst Casey gave them a straw on her request. They grabbed a few other things and little James had stuck his straw behind his ear and was showing it off as if he had a cool new headgear on. It was really cute. I was thinking more along the lines of him being a potential performer of some sort when he grows up.
One of the little pleasantries of work. And life, I might add.
\\ That caffeinated bit
I had three shots of espresso during the first half of my shift, of course, diluted with light soy. That probably released my happy hormones. Pretty good except I didn't get much studying done.I still enjoy my coffee but hey it's a marvel how I do not have to have it each day of my life.
Some things do change.
\\ On best friends
My theory is, there is that spectrum of best friends in general and different people just lie on different spots. Very subjective interpretation but hey it's good to have one that's close to the David-Jonathan (in reference to the Bible) sort of friendship. They're all friends and perhaps calling someone your best friend is like putting a stricter label that may come with certain exceptations some people choose not to deal with. If the so-called best friend fails to live up to some ground rules, it's just way worse than if that person is just one of those people u call your friend. Ack.
Yeah, such is life. Am I quoting myself or a terrible cliche?
\\ Expressions
"Like hello!?!" from Casey is "like heller!?!" from Carlo. Just created a whole laughing madness out of those. I wonder if Casey got that from Carlo. He didn't have a clue. I know I got my "oh my goodness!" spiel from Na. I didn't realize until I heard her say it. Where else could I have gotten it from? It's funny how different people influence you in many different ways and well it follows that the more time you spend with a certain person the more his or her mannerisms and ways become more akin to yours. Perhaps afterwards that is how you gauge how much a person has been a part of you.
And there you trace the intricate patterns of intertwined human lives.
\\ Live and RELIV
My parents have been taking food supplements in the form of health drinks and they got me some to take. I hated it at first but now they're not that bad. Halfway through those things. I don't really know what they do but one thing's for sure, I still have to cut down on food and exercise more. It's just annoying how you can't fit into your old pair of jeans anymore. Rosa misses her Rugby, too. Casey gave me his guest passes to the gym. Have yet to try them out. I think I might stick to Jazz and just do a tad more on my own. What Rugby is to Rosa is what Jazz dance is to moi.
I'd like to stick to doing the artsy fartsy stuff.
\\ The psychological stuff
I could have pressed a replay button somewhere. I tend to do the 'this time last year' portion as in MTV or Rick Dees and the like portions and get some thinking going.It's either I torment myself about something to the point of boredom thus overcome the whole greatness of such thought or flow into the fantastic boundaries of possibilities and what if's that I encourage my mental creativity to flourish within. I reckon that's how my 'graphological specimen' changes every now and again.
It's all a matter of how you think and where you place yourself in the picture.
\\ ..whatevers..
I felt bad for preferring weekdays over weekends here. Bad because it felt so abnormal. Had a bonding session with Na over brunch yesterday at New Orleans Cafe somewhere down the next neighborhood. I raised my appreciation for weekdays saying how it was like there is serenity over the whole nation and there is order in the sense that each and every person had their own little thing to do. It was utopia for me and to my surprise, it was for Na as well.
As I always say, great minds think alike.
I'd be having this end of student life celebration after my exams. It should be fun. So far my whole year's planned out.
Christmas is still a bit of a mystery, as is my publishing career. Again.No biggie though.
Saturday, October 16, 2004
bludger blogger
Final minute til tomorrow. Clearly nonsensical. Anyhoo been a ho-hum day right from the start. I think I woke up to the sound of my alarm clock thinking I had nothing to do and I was just repeating some "sleep in! sleep in!" mantra that worked for like an hour and ten minutes.
Thereafter I managed to put some sense into my coconut husk and realized I HAVE TO GET TO WORK AND I AM ALREADY BLOODY TEN MINUTES LATE!!! Tried to ring Casey but his phone was 'disconnected' which was weird. I still took my shower, then rang Casey to let him know I was on my way.
About 8 minutes to 8am I got to work, grabbed a till and got Casey to open the loverly shutters whilst I try to set up as much as possible as I saw a couple of guys lurking around. Potential customers and yes, they did come in and ordered a couple of Venti drinks!
Work was bludgy, a bit on the boring side yet good fun. Dropped by Circular Quay cos Rosa's finishing her shift and then we headed home whilst Al went off to the uni library.
Came home, wrote a long overdue response to a letter I got like half a year ago and tried to cram in a bit of studying. I so couldn't concentrate for some reasons and well I was happy I was able to write letters again. Haven't done that in ages so I was trying to get into the swing of things again.
Off to Casey's for dinner as I gave up reading Accounting. Had another one of Casey's feasts and then just a lot of blabbering around and laugh-out-louds with him and Rosa. Amy was at work so she missed out. Talked about funnies and psychological stuff (triggered by this telly show called Monk with that dude with OCD).
My muscles still pain me. All from the rigid Jazz dance warm-ups. It's the good sort of pain. I so needed the work-out.
Thereafter I managed to put some sense into my coconut husk and realized I HAVE TO GET TO WORK AND I AM ALREADY BLOODY TEN MINUTES LATE!!! Tried to ring Casey but his phone was 'disconnected' which was weird. I still took my shower, then rang Casey to let him know I was on my way.
About 8 minutes to 8am I got to work, grabbed a till and got Casey to open the loverly shutters whilst I try to set up as much as possible as I saw a couple of guys lurking around. Potential customers and yes, they did come in and ordered a couple of Venti drinks!
Work was bludgy, a bit on the boring side yet good fun. Dropped by Circular Quay cos Rosa's finishing her shift and then we headed home whilst Al went off to the uni library.
Came home, wrote a long overdue response to a letter I got like half a year ago and tried to cram in a bit of studying. I so couldn't concentrate for some reasons and well I was happy I was able to write letters again. Haven't done that in ages so I was trying to get into the swing of things again.
Off to Casey's for dinner as I gave up reading Accounting. Had another one of Casey's feasts and then just a lot of blabbering around and laugh-out-louds with him and Rosa. Amy was at work so she missed out. Talked about funnies and psychological stuff (triggered by this telly show called Monk with that dude with OCD).
My muscles still pain me. All from the rigid Jazz dance warm-ups. It's the good sort of pain. I so needed the work-out.
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
Attack of the Moths
I'm just a tiny bit too cheery for someone who's only halfway through an essay due in less than 24 hours. And I still need to squeeze in at least 8 hours of sleep.
Had two tiring lectures today. Finance class was like walking in the middle of a movie with a rather complicated plot. I just don't get it. Yeah I have a clue but I don't follow because I haven't caught up with readings and tutorials and yeah I just hated the lecturers.
Company Law wasn't too bad. It was rather interesting. But at that time of the night you really start thinking of home sweet home.
It's final. We're pretty much staying at St. L now. Which is good because merely thinking of all the hassles involved in moving just pains me. It makes my knees so weak I can hardly think of what I ought to be doing the next minute. We'll be signing a 6-month contract in exchange for the new digital lock they will be installing.
Nothing weird's been happening this month but who knows? The real estate agent was asking me why someone's picking on us. Told him how we don't even know anyone around and he went 'hmmm... ex-boyfriend...' I just had to laugh.
That's one main thing to be happy about and perhaps another is the fact that my essay is actually going somewhere. I just need to find relevant cases and legislations and stuff but the framework's all set.
Nezzie's become Art Director at Mccann! It's like omg! omg! omg! I would have died if I were in her shoes! She's back in Indo. Don't think she can come back here although she wants to but it's great she's going places in Jakarta. I dunno if I'll be riding similar waves should I end up in Manila.
Cheers to Nezzie!!!
Had two tiring lectures today. Finance class was like walking in the middle of a movie with a rather complicated plot. I just don't get it. Yeah I have a clue but I don't follow because I haven't caught up with readings and tutorials and yeah I just hated the lecturers.
Company Law wasn't too bad. It was rather interesting. But at that time of the night you really start thinking of home sweet home.
It's final. We're pretty much staying at St. L now. Which is good because merely thinking of all the hassles involved in moving just pains me. It makes my knees so weak I can hardly think of what I ought to be doing the next minute. We'll be signing a 6-month contract in exchange for the new digital lock they will be installing.
Nothing weird's been happening this month but who knows? The real estate agent was asking me why someone's picking on us. Told him how we don't even know anyone around and he went 'hmmm... ex-boyfriend...' I just had to laugh.
That's one main thing to be happy about and perhaps another is the fact that my essay is actually going somewhere. I just need to find relevant cases and legislations and stuff but the framework's all set.
Nezzie's become Art Director at Mccann! It's like omg! omg! omg! I would have died if I were in her shoes! She's back in Indo. Don't think she can come back here although she wants to but it's great she's going places in Jakarta. I dunno if I'll be riding similar waves should I end up in Manila.
Cheers to Nezzie!!!
Hunger Pangs
I've reached the half-mark essay-wise. It's time for another leg of research but I'm getting hungry. At this time of the night, that means it's time for bed.
Haven't done this in a while. I meant surf the net until I go hungry. It's more of a time element than anything. I really cannot eat that much not because of inability but because of discipline.
Tomorrow's looking brighter just because I know where my essay is going. I really really have to pass this semester. I know I gotta work for it. Al's been my law adviser, Casey my unassuming shrink-for-the-moment and Na keeps me company. Of course, here is the roof above her head.
Looking past Company Law assignment deadline, my shcedule still looks tight. I have three CD reviews I wanna write. All intangibles so they do not rank high on my list.
The smile's more genuine now. I'm off to lala land.
Haven't done this in a while. I meant surf the net until I go hungry. It's more of a time element than anything. I really cannot eat that much not because of inability but because of discipline.
Tomorrow's looking brighter just because I know where my essay is going. I really really have to pass this semester. I know I gotta work for it. Al's been my law adviser, Casey my unassuming shrink-for-the-moment and Na keeps me company. Of course, here is the roof above her head.
Looking past Company Law assignment deadline, my shcedule still looks tight. I have three CD reviews I wanna write. All intangibles so they do not rank high on my list.
The smile's more genuine now. I'm off to lala land.
Monday, October 11, 2004
black olives & rice
Meant to be typing up my Com Law essay. I've done a fair bit of research. The rest of the research I can do online. Procrastinating again.
I caught the train home with a friend last night. We were discussing flatmates and was saying how he's sick of spending too much time with his flatmate. I said I'm not sick of mine but I dunno if she's sick of me. We have our own lives, you see. I would think he has a life totally separate from his flatmate. I guess some people just ignore the boundaries.
When something from your past suddenly appears in front of you, what do you do? I would have thought I'd say hi and walk away but when reality struck, I just did the walking away bit. I was neither happy nor sad. A good reaction, I have to say. Did it affect me? Not really.
I haven't had proper dinner in days. I just ate and now I feel bloated. All the more reason to not fall asleep and start writing my essay.
I caught the train home with a friend last night. We were discussing flatmates and was saying how he's sick of spending too much time with his flatmate. I said I'm not sick of mine but I dunno if she's sick of me. We have our own lives, you see. I would think he has a life totally separate from his flatmate. I guess some people just ignore the boundaries.
When something from your past suddenly appears in front of you, what do you do? I would have thought I'd say hi and walk away but when reality struck, I just did the walking away bit. I was neither happy nor sad. A good reaction, I have to say. Did it affect me? Not really.
I haven't had proper dinner in days. I just ate and now I feel bloated. All the more reason to not fall asleep and start writing my essay.
Sunday, October 10, 2004
media buff status: at it again!
Hillsong Life
This marks my first day on the Hillsong TV Crew! Such a joyous moment! Yeah it was just nice to be back in that line again! I can just stay there forever! Errr... well... I have to eat, too. Maybe that's just where Starbucks comes in. Waaaah!
Cell's on again next Tuesday and I have to miss it AGAIN cos of a make up class, this time. How disappointing.
The Apartment
John the real estate agent's popped by to show a couple of couples THIS apartment and I picked that moment to discreetly tell him of the keyhole jamming incidents. Aparently, he wasn't aware of it. He should have because 1. we've left his receptionist a message about it on the phone, 2. the strata manager should have called him and 3. we mentioned it in our lease termination letter.
But anyway, he ended up openly discussing the scenarios and proposing solutions to counter the crime. I think I used more adjectives than I was supposed to throughout my story telling. So we might actually stay. But it's all up in the air at the moment. What's new? We decided to postpone the deadline anyway.
That was one load off my back.
This marks my first day on the Hillsong TV Crew! Such a joyous moment! Yeah it was just nice to be back in that line again! I can just stay there forever! Errr... well... I have to eat, too. Maybe that's just where Starbucks comes in. Waaaah!
Cell's on again next Tuesday and I have to miss it AGAIN cos of a make up class, this time. How disappointing.
The Apartment
John the real estate agent's popped by to show a couple of couples THIS apartment and I picked that moment to discreetly tell him of the keyhole jamming incidents. Aparently, he wasn't aware of it. He should have because 1. we've left his receptionist a message about it on the phone, 2. the strata manager should have called him and 3. we mentioned it in our lease termination letter.
But anyway, he ended up openly discussing the scenarios and proposing solutions to counter the crime. I think I used more adjectives than I was supposed to throughout my story telling. So we might actually stay. But it's all up in the air at the moment. What's new? We decided to postpone the deadline anyway.
That was one load off my back.
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
CONSOLIDATION and all that JAZZ
Ahhhh! Felt so good to do jazz again! It's been ages since me and Amy have gone. Our prepaid tickets are expiring so we're trying to use them all up! It's so excellent we're gonna go again tomorrow! We did a cool routine. It's rather very 80's.
Had dinner at Pancakes with Rosa and Al afterwards and then lounged around at Starbucks Circular Quay.
Me and Na are still looking around for a new place. It can get frustrating at times but I guess I get enough euphoric vibes from jazz to lift me up through that and all other things going on.
I have a Comapny Law essay to write so I thought it's time for another visit to the Law Library. All the books are gone! Alas!
Such is life. Tomorrow I'll be back at work but hey I'm planning my next two holidays so it's all looking bright.
Had dinner at Pancakes with Rosa and Al afterwards and then lounged around at Starbucks Circular Quay.
Me and Na are still looking around for a new place. It can get frustrating at times but I guess I get enough euphoric vibes from jazz to lift me up through that and all other things going on.
I have a Comapny Law essay to write so I thought it's time for another visit to the Law Library. All the books are gone! Alas!
Such is life. Tomorrow I'll be back at work but hey I'm planning my next two holidays so it's all looking bright.
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
BloggeRANT!
*Breathing exercises!*
I haven't really slept in like two days now. Was catching up with the Singaporeans yesterday which was very very surreal. In every sense of the word. It was like going on a mind journey. These film people are nuts in every sense of the word, and that "every sense of the word" included philosophical.
I am once again aggressively confronted by my To Do List. I begin to ponder, I begin to sort myself out. I even wonder, sometimes out loud, whether I am okay or not. Psychologically. That is one major thing. Inevident to the majority but very evident to me.
I am well though. I just need sleep and then a bit of hard work in the morning to set things just right.
Did I say something about the coolness of having French movie marathons? I saw a German one and a Korean one, too. Plus a bunch of mainstream ones. Oh and The Notebook is really really commendable. Storywise, that is. I still think it could have gotten a better title.
I just passed the Yes Asia post to Josc. Hopefully she gets it.
I haven't really slept in like two days now. Was catching up with the Singaporeans yesterday which was very very surreal. In every sense of the word. It was like going on a mind journey. These film people are nuts in every sense of the word, and that "every sense of the word" included philosophical.
I am once again aggressively confronted by my To Do List. I begin to ponder, I begin to sort myself out. I even wonder, sometimes out loud, whether I am okay or not. Psychologically. That is one major thing. Inevident to the majority but very evident to me.
I am well though. I just need sleep and then a bit of hard work in the morning to set things just right.
Did I say something about the coolness of having French movie marathons? I saw a German one and a Korean one, too. Plus a bunch of mainstream ones. Oh and The Notebook is really really commendable. Storywise, that is. I still think it could have gotten a better title.
I just passed the Yes Asia post to Josc. Hopefully she gets it.
Thursday, September 30, 2004
what's in my briefcase?
Final say for the month of September, that is, looking at Manila time where I am now. My plate’s still full despite my supposed holiday mode. Bought three stellar CDs, which hopefully I get to enjoy, review, write about and then get my articles published, at least online.
Priorities rule. That would be passing my exams (read: accounting, translated: consolidation).
Holidays are holidays. I wish I can really make a holiday out of this so-called trip. This is more of a business trip. I can barely make time to meet up with my friends, much less even accomplish my goal-oriented tasks of doing tutorials and catching up at least a tad on readings.
However, bro took me out Monday night for dinner with a couple of new friends, one of whom turned out to be someone we’ve already known from yonkers and yonkers ago. It was pretty interesting. Spent a few hours with a couple of cool mates from uni here. Was all good. Great to catch up but not enough time. Loadsa errands in between and the bottomline of it all, not everyone knows I am in town, partly because I hardly have time to say hi. And mind you, I hate phone conversations.
I am currently holding my breath because of that which may be my fate, of that which may happen, of that which may be revealed.
But what the heck, first things first.
Priorities rule. That would be passing my exams (read: accounting, translated: consolidation).
Holidays are holidays. I wish I can really make a holiday out of this so-called trip. This is more of a business trip. I can barely make time to meet up with my friends, much less even accomplish my goal-oriented tasks of doing tutorials and catching up at least a tad on readings.
However, bro took me out Monday night for dinner with a couple of new friends, one of whom turned out to be someone we’ve already known from yonkers and yonkers ago. It was pretty interesting. Spent a few hours with a couple of cool mates from uni here. Was all good. Great to catch up but not enough time. Loadsa errands in between and the bottomline of it all, not everyone knows I am in town, partly because I hardly have time to say hi. And mind you, I hate phone conversations.
I am currently holding my breath because of that which may be my fate, of that which may happen, of that which may be revealed.
But what the heck, first things first.
Thursday, September 16, 2004
RED in the FACE
Today marks the end of the torture I've been having for three weeks now. The pains of midterm exams. I loathe them all the more these days. Pretty much wasted my day fretting about what was to come. That dreaded 40 multiple choice questions sound easy but I should know how complicated the seemingly simple pick-the-right-letter exams can be.
I stayed north the whole morning, came home for a really late lunch after buying groceries (finally!) and cooking veggie curry. I was trying to be healthy. It was a good attempt. Didn't do any studying thereafter. Just got sick of it.
I spent a fair bit of time trying to remember cases and there wasn't even a single mention of them in the exam. And yeah the exam was not complicated.
Had Korean at Haymerket with Al and then had icky coffee from next door. It wasn't meant to be icky but it really depends on who made it. When you know your coffee you become extremely fussy, obviously. And we headed to Darlo to meet up with Genie and her friends for her farewell thingo. Wasn't sure if it was dinner or drinks or both. Too many 'happy' people there. It was interesting. Yeah it was really a Darlinghurst crowd.
And so I am savoring the fresh air of freedom. Tomorrow's another busy day. A normal one this time. I have to get my bar article planning done.
I'm so looking forward to tomorrow. And the next week.
I stayed north the whole morning, came home for a really late lunch after buying groceries (finally!) and cooking veggie curry. I was trying to be healthy. It was a good attempt. Didn't do any studying thereafter. Just got sick of it.
I spent a fair bit of time trying to remember cases and there wasn't even a single mention of them in the exam. And yeah the exam was not complicated.
Had Korean at Haymerket with Al and then had icky coffee from next door. It wasn't meant to be icky but it really depends on who made it. When you know your coffee you become extremely fussy, obviously. And we headed to Darlo to meet up with Genie and her friends for her farewell thingo. Wasn't sure if it was dinner or drinks or both. Too many 'happy' people there. It was interesting. Yeah it was really a Darlinghurst crowd.
And so I am savoring the fresh air of freedom. Tomorrow's another busy day. A normal one this time. I have to get my bar article planning done.
I'm so looking forward to tomorrow. And the next week.
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
"Busy" sign up!
Haven't really been 'operating' properly. Perhaps my paranoia is striking again or something along those lines. Film people have psychological issues of some degree. At least that's a going thing in and out of film school.
I still have Company Law to worry about at this time but I'm choosing not to worry about for the next 30 to 60 minutes. It's been a day out of the normal Ivannah day.
Slept a tad too much, stayed home from the time I woke up til 6:45 at night when I was even intending to do shopping for me and Na. I've been trying to study. There's just too much stuff to read and I guess that's been pulling my mood down for a while now. Which also explains the extra hours of sleep I've been craving for.
Had cell today which was fab. Like almost 100% of the time I have to really drag myself to cell for a bunch of unexplainable, but a few explainable reasons. As of late, it's due to the fact that I barely know these people and I have no clue as to how the night is gonna go. But 100% of the time, so far, things have been way above expectations. People who pray for me have always been really inspiring. I always get overwhelmed, feeling special for ages and then when I look back to what they have prayed about I can't remember their exact words.
Work hasn't been very ideal for too long now. I feel a bit lost as to where to go and what to do. My other jobs are kinda in the air at the moment. They are semi new territories, still strange and I guess just more challenging hence the need for me to sit and figure things out plus condition myself before I actually attack. Sigh.
I feel lost. The balance is there nonetheless. A few realizations tonight. Just about life in general. I shouldn't be too pensive.
I still have Company Law to worry about at this time but I'm choosing not to worry about for the next 30 to 60 minutes. It's been a day out of the normal Ivannah day.
Slept a tad too much, stayed home from the time I woke up til 6:45 at night when I was even intending to do shopping for me and Na. I've been trying to study. There's just too much stuff to read and I guess that's been pulling my mood down for a while now. Which also explains the extra hours of sleep I've been craving for.
Had cell today which was fab. Like almost 100% of the time I have to really drag myself to cell for a bunch of unexplainable, but a few explainable reasons. As of late, it's due to the fact that I barely know these people and I have no clue as to how the night is gonna go. But 100% of the time, so far, things have been way above expectations. People who pray for me have always been really inspiring. I always get overwhelmed, feeling special for ages and then when I look back to what they have prayed about I can't remember their exact words.
Work hasn't been very ideal for too long now. I feel a bit lost as to where to go and what to do. My other jobs are kinda in the air at the moment. They are semi new territories, still strange and I guess just more challenging hence the need for me to sit and figure things out plus condition myself before I actually attack. Sigh.
I feel lost. The balance is there nonetheless. A few realizations tonight. Just about life in general. I shouldn't be too pensive.
Monday, September 13, 2004
caught in midterm confusion
And so once again I am back in blog world... Been studying for Company Law. Or at least trying to. I can't even remember what I've been up to lately.
Main Goal for the rest of 2004: Pass my exams
I did a fair bit of hanging around work, as usual and we basically took turns being overwhelmed, at the same time annoyed at what our new manager have been doing to our store. The annoyance mainly came from the lack of basis of his actions. He hardly knew the trends, he didn't even bother to ask and then he just molded the store into his ideal. Or maybe just what he thinks our store should be like. It wasn't like he did it with utmost concern for our welfare. Oh well, we should survive. The Wynyard team is still very much together.
On the writing side of things, the Asian film writing stint is looking promising. However, expectations are to be kept at minimum. The other, seemingly more stable one has been postponed once again. How much more delays are coming? I guess that's the down side to being with anything that is just developing. Who knows what's gonna come out of this in the end?
Amy came over Friday night to watch chinese vcds. It was pretty entertaining but I ended up just half watching the second and third movie. I only had eyes for Infernal Affairs.
Went to Hillsong with Dex on Sunday. Amy was there, too. Had to study afterwards. Ugh and then came home to read more but kinda sneaked a magazine in between and then called it a day real soon.
Weird how I got a thank you letter for volunteering at the Hillsong Conference when I didn't! Are they gonna send me a certificate afterwards as well?
Main Goal for the rest of 2004: Pass my exams
I did a fair bit of hanging around work, as usual and we basically took turns being overwhelmed, at the same time annoyed at what our new manager have been doing to our store. The annoyance mainly came from the lack of basis of his actions. He hardly knew the trends, he didn't even bother to ask and then he just molded the store into his ideal. Or maybe just what he thinks our store should be like. It wasn't like he did it with utmost concern for our welfare. Oh well, we should survive. The Wynyard team is still very much together.
On the writing side of things, the Asian film writing stint is looking promising. However, expectations are to be kept at minimum. The other, seemingly more stable one has been postponed once again. How much more delays are coming? I guess that's the down side to being with anything that is just developing. Who knows what's gonna come out of this in the end?
Amy came over Friday night to watch chinese vcds. It was pretty entertaining but I ended up just half watching the second and third movie. I only had eyes for Infernal Affairs.
Went to Hillsong with Dex on Sunday. Amy was there, too. Had to study afterwards. Ugh and then came home to read more but kinda sneaked a magazine in between and then called it a day real soon.
Weird how I got a thank you letter for volunteering at the Hillsong Conference when I didn't! Are they gonna send me a certificate afterwards as well?
Thursday, September 09, 2004
week 7 dramas
I'm starting to "stress" over some legalities. The clock is ticking! Yes, I can hear it loud enough thank you!
Work's not so great just because of what's coming. It's not out in the open yet that our immediate out of store managers are leaving the company. So what's gonna happen now? Is that the end of me, too?
I had to ditch work yesterday morning cos someone's been mucking around with our locks. It was an unnecessary hassle. On top of the time, there is also the cost. $80 for a 5-minute lock operation just to get the wires and super glue out of the key holes. How dumb. Either the strata does something about security here or me and Na are out of here.
I have two more exams to sit for. One of them's this arvo. Busy busy day ahead.
Work's not so great just because of what's coming. It's not out in the open yet that our immediate out of store managers are leaving the company. So what's gonna happen now? Is that the end of me, too?
I had to ditch work yesterday morning cos someone's been mucking around with our locks. It was an unnecessary hassle. On top of the time, there is also the cost. $80 for a 5-minute lock operation just to get the wires and super glue out of the key holes. How dumb. Either the strata does something about security here or me and Na are out of here.
I have two more exams to sit for. One of them's this arvo. Busy busy day ahead.
Sunday, September 05, 2004
Released from the dungeon
I find myself free from most of the anxieties that bound me for the past X number of months. The angst has probably left me although there is that slightest tinge of doubt. I've walked through the remnants of things I was once so attached to. There was hardly anything that triggered any form of emotion. Such marks a journey towards the end if not the end itself.
[apparents]
A friend asked me why I decided to base myself at Hillsong instead of Wesley. I found it hard to articulate my abstract thoughts. He went on to narrating other friends' sides to the story which brough him to expressing about how the fellows in the ship are merely in a venue to find their other halves. My friend's further inquiry led to the conclusion that the 'society' is encouraging such partnerships and anything that might lead to such.
In my opinion, that should not be a main objective. Perhaps it is an underlying one. However, hearing that made me lean more towards my current decision.
[24]
It's a Friday thing to be sick. It was my birthday but with all the invisible and inapparent care in the world, I decided to let my laziness take over and so I decided to stay home the whole day where I did something semi-productive.
Still went out for dinner though. There was food, drinks, lotsa friends and all. Thinking back, it was such a contrast from last year in a sense probably only obvious to my eyes and to those who knew me best. However it was a nice celebration.
Spoke to a couple of friends who rang me from back home. I appreciate that like craaazzzyyy cos hardly anyone calls from philly! Not that they are obliged to. It was just really sweet.
I was once again reminded of how grown up my bro is. He messaged me saying he hasn't bought me a card or a gift so when I go home he'd take me out to dinner. That was cute. I miss my bro.
Oh and I love cards more than anything. Weirdness. Was glad I got some.
[ Nin Jiom OD]
Hell yeah, I'm still barking. And so I've been 'drinking' the lovely chinese herbal cough syrup Al bought me. That's prolly my bday pressie. Haha! Not that I mind. But yeah I really wanna get rid of my itchy itchy throat.
[side notes]
Finally got rid of the pyramid trap! I hope I wasn't too rude. I think I had the competitive advantage of shooing the predator away as she was having her yummy sausage roll and Js hot chocolate whilst I whizz by and drop off her CDs which I didn't even listen to.
It wasn't that easy though cos I had to spill out this half bull about having to rush to attend to some work-related crisis during the present time. Plus, I practically blacked out any future contacts by 'clueing' her in on my busy busy in the grey future. I was terribly relieved.
[turning 24 pressies]
1. my lurvely business cards which i'm still obssessed with
2. the tv crew spot
3. freeing myself from the pyramid hole
4. unexpected/upcoming hols
5. friends n family
6. the unexpected calls
7. and the rest of the tangible stuffs
[apparents]
A friend asked me why I decided to base myself at Hillsong instead of Wesley. I found it hard to articulate my abstract thoughts. He went on to narrating other friends' sides to the story which brough him to expressing about how the fellows in the ship are merely in a venue to find their other halves. My friend's further inquiry led to the conclusion that the 'society' is encouraging such partnerships and anything that might lead to such.
In my opinion, that should not be a main objective. Perhaps it is an underlying one. However, hearing that made me lean more towards my current decision.
[24]
It's a Friday thing to be sick. It was my birthday but with all the invisible and inapparent care in the world, I decided to let my laziness take over and so I decided to stay home the whole day where I did something semi-productive.
Still went out for dinner though. There was food, drinks, lotsa friends and all. Thinking back, it was such a contrast from last year in a sense probably only obvious to my eyes and to those who knew me best. However it was a nice celebration.
Spoke to a couple of friends who rang me from back home. I appreciate that like craaazzzyyy cos hardly anyone calls from philly! Not that they are obliged to. It was just really sweet.
I was once again reminded of how grown up my bro is. He messaged me saying he hasn't bought me a card or a gift so when I go home he'd take me out to dinner. That was cute. I miss my bro.
Oh and I love cards more than anything. Weirdness. Was glad I got some.
[ Nin Jiom OD]
Hell yeah, I'm still barking. And so I've been 'drinking' the lovely chinese herbal cough syrup Al bought me. That's prolly my bday pressie. Haha! Not that I mind. But yeah I really wanna get rid of my itchy itchy throat.
[side notes]
Finally got rid of the pyramid trap! I hope I wasn't too rude. I think I had the competitive advantage of shooing the predator away as she was having her yummy sausage roll and Js hot chocolate whilst I whizz by and drop off her CDs which I didn't even listen to.
It wasn't that easy though cos I had to spill out this half bull about having to rush to attend to some work-related crisis during the present time. Plus, I practically blacked out any future contacts by 'clueing' her in on my busy busy in the grey future. I was terribly relieved.
[turning 24 pressies]
1. my lurvely business cards which i'm still obssessed with
2. the tv crew spot
3. freeing myself from the pyramid hole
4. unexpected/upcoming hols
5. friends n family
6. the unexpected calls
7. and the rest of the tangible stuffs
Thursday, September 02, 2004
*silly smile pasted on Ivannah's face*
Day-off tomorrow! It's my birthday, too! But haha I'm normally not psyched about my birthdays. If I were given a choice, I wouldn't really choose to have a birthday. I know that's insane. We're all entitled to our own thoughts though. And this is my blog so I can write anything.
Slept in a bit this morning so I was kinda late for work... Well I was actually intending to wake up a tad early so I can do a bit of ironing, at least good for today. I called it a night too early last night. And so I had to grab a black skirt and wear it to work, intending to come home after my 6-12 shift and iron + change prior to going to uni.
Work was a-ok. Just tiring cos there was only me and Sririn. We did a great job but yeah it just wears you out. Then I had to do a bit of admin work for Roy, the new manager cos Amanda went to the snow.... it was ok. The heat in the store was giving me a massive headache so I had to nick one of Edwin/Alison's Panadol.
I finished work just as I was to leave for uni... and got there right on the dot. Skirt and all... yeah. massive headache included...
I went to uni cos I need the course notes and the midterm tips... which the lecturer decided to reveal at the end of the lecture. I had coffee during the break. I haven't had coffee for a week and I was impressed by the uni soy mocha. I actually felt the caffeine going through my system and it shook me up... Pretty good job it did.
Midterm tips included the following:
A: 20 multiple choice (lease, construction contracts and mining)
B: writted (theory/calculations)
Very, very helpful indeed! Ugh!
But I daresay it was quite an achievement to have sat through the entirety of the 2.5 hour lecture. Whoa! I left uni very happy.
I had to drop by the store a second time as I realized I brought the deposit book with me. Haha! I didn't wanna get into trouble... so I ended up having afternoon tea and chatting sooo much with Pauline and John. It was fun. I love those people!
And so those things made my day happy. But then, I gotta prepare for midterms very soon. Can't afford to flunk!
Slept in a bit this morning so I was kinda late for work... Well I was actually intending to wake up a tad early so I can do a bit of ironing, at least good for today. I called it a night too early last night. And so I had to grab a black skirt and wear it to work, intending to come home after my 6-12 shift and iron + change prior to going to uni.
Work was a-ok. Just tiring cos there was only me and Sririn. We did a great job but yeah it just wears you out. Then I had to do a bit of admin work for Roy, the new manager cos Amanda went to the snow.... it was ok. The heat in the store was giving me a massive headache so I had to nick one of Edwin/Alison's Panadol.
I finished work just as I was to leave for uni... and got there right on the dot. Skirt and all... yeah. massive headache included...
I went to uni cos I need the course notes and the midterm tips... which the lecturer decided to reveal at the end of the lecture. I had coffee during the break. I haven't had coffee for a week and I was impressed by the uni soy mocha. I actually felt the caffeine going through my system and it shook me up... Pretty good job it did.
Midterm tips included the following:
A: 20 multiple choice (lease, construction contracts and mining)
B: writted (theory/calculations)
Very, very helpful indeed! Ugh!
But I daresay it was quite an achievement to have sat through the entirety of the 2.5 hour lecture. Whoa! I left uni very happy.
I had to drop by the store a second time as I realized I brought the deposit book with me. Haha! I didn't wanna get into trouble... so I ended up having afternoon tea and chatting sooo much with Pauline and John. It was fun. I love those people!
And so those things made my day happy. But then, I gotta prepare for midterms very soon. Can't afford to flunk!
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
>> WhingeWhingeWhingeWhingeWhinge!!!
I think anyone dumb can figure this out from 10,000 miles away. It's been a good day in general. Apart from my itchy throat and the headache I woke up with, everything was JUST perfect.
So I still have some sort of flu hangover and at the moment I'm pretty much coughing non-stop plus I have this awful gas-y feeling where I either can't breathe and have to burp but can't burp. Probably had too much Strepsils. But they're not even minty! And so I'm having some tea. I'll be downing a few big mugfuls, really. Hoping to calm down whatever bug I caught and hopefully be back to my normal hectic lifestyle by sunrise.
Had lunch with Joy prior to work. It was short but sweet. Always nice to catch up with these lovely people. I couldn't speak properly though cos of my phlegm infested throat. Sounds icky.
My shift was a-ok. I felt really productive trying to clean the whole store for a seemingly pedantic inspector. We have a new store manager. I don't really know if he's gonna be our long-term store manager. I know him from my years at work. He's excellent but really strict. Anyhoo, I gave the close my best shot today.
Sririn and Al came by to visit and I was working with Ewa. Had to get too much stuff from Damo in the neighborhood. He's working with this new kid, Adrian who happens to be cute. Like a cute 18 year old boy. Good eye treatment. How long will he last? Hmmm.... We'll see about that.
We're still gonna campaign for Amanda to stay put at Wynyard so I have to fix Al's overly eloquent composition. Big job. No definite deadline, though.
I have a big writing assignment. It's like creative writing class in a sense with no rules whatsoever except that I cannot write about Miyazaki because somebody else is already doing that. This entails a whole heap of research and movie time. I don't even know my deadline. I probably don't have one. I feel rather lost in a system-less environment. Is that good or bad? I guess I'll have to device my own strategy.
BURP!
So I still have some sort of flu hangover and at the moment I'm pretty much coughing non-stop plus I have this awful gas-y feeling where I either can't breathe and have to burp but can't burp. Probably had too much Strepsils. But they're not even minty! And so I'm having some tea. I'll be downing a few big mugfuls, really. Hoping to calm down whatever bug I caught and hopefully be back to my normal hectic lifestyle by sunrise.
Had lunch with Joy prior to work. It was short but sweet. Always nice to catch up with these lovely people. I couldn't speak properly though cos of my phlegm infested throat. Sounds icky.
My shift was a-ok. I felt really productive trying to clean the whole store for a seemingly pedantic inspector. We have a new store manager. I don't really know if he's gonna be our long-term store manager. I know him from my years at work. He's excellent but really strict. Anyhoo, I gave the close my best shot today.
Sririn and Al came by to visit and I was working with Ewa. Had to get too much stuff from Damo in the neighborhood. He's working with this new kid, Adrian who happens to be cute. Like a cute 18 year old boy. Good eye treatment. How long will he last? Hmmm.... We'll see about that.
We're still gonna campaign for Amanda to stay put at Wynyard so I have to fix Al's overly eloquent composition. Big job. No definite deadline, though.
I have a big writing assignment. It's like creative writing class in a sense with no rules whatsoever except that I cannot write about Miyazaki because somebody else is already doing that. This entails a whole heap of research and movie time. I don't even know my deadline. I probably don't have one. I feel rather lost in a system-less environment. Is that good or bad? I guess I'll have to device my own strategy.
BURP!
Monday, August 30, 2004
Dreams and Fairytales
Ecstatic. I finally finally got my business cards! It's sooo coool! Could have been better if it said 'Section Editor' instead of 'Writer'. Well, well. We'll get there! It's still better than nothing! Which reminds me, I have to check my Concierge mail...
I got another writing stint and they pay heaps more, which is good. But a lot of research needs to be done because they're pretty much untapped territory for me. Asian films.
I'm feeling better now. It's just the coughing that's annoying me and probably the people around me. Oooops! I finished my Finance midterms so it's good good!
I was still taking a million naps trying to recover from whatever ailment I have. I had funny dreams that made me really wake up. This morning it was because I thought something in my dream was too ridiculous and I just thought I must be dreaming and I better wake up. And then siesta time it happened cos I thought my jaw was totally dislocated and I kinda panicked. I was so relieved to find my jaw in place. Too much steak. Still craving for it.
Heard from Lloyd and Narlyn today. They've come face to face with life. Soon it will be my turn.
I got another writing stint and they pay heaps more, which is good. But a lot of research needs to be done because they're pretty much untapped territory for me. Asian films.
I'm feeling better now. It's just the coughing that's annoying me and probably the people around me. Oooops! I finished my Finance midterms so it's good good!
I was still taking a million naps trying to recover from whatever ailment I have. I had funny dreams that made me really wake up. This morning it was because I thought something in my dream was too ridiculous and I just thought I must be dreaming and I better wake up. And then siesta time it happened cos I thought my jaw was totally dislocated and I kinda panicked. I was so relieved to find my jaw in place. Too much steak. Still craving for it.
Heard from Lloyd and Narlyn today. They've come face to face with life. Soon it will be my turn.
Sunday, August 29, 2004
A dose of opium for Sunday
I'm still sick so I am confined at home attending to myself. I have to study big time and I have to eat, take my tablets and so on. I bet I'll be a-ok tomorrow. Managed to get rid of my Sunday and Monday shifts despite my want for additional moolah. Some things do change.
I feel the need to scream just because of the little annoyances of life. I've tried to live with the fact that there are these minor unpleasantries that I have to sit through and endure until who knows when. Sometimes I wonder if they are all that minor because every now and then, I swear that they tend to drive me to the verge of insanity. Does it really help to voice out and complain when other people are involved or is it always better to just flex and change one's own perspective?
Life is beautiful. Mom said that to me the other day. That I already know but I never expected mom to tell me that. She added that one should just know how to live life. These are choices. Nobody should be confined to eternal damnation against one's will. But then again, I guess there's a big difference between living life and all it's wonders within one's comfort zone and going out of the boundaries being a tad adventurous. It's all about choices.
Jonathan's message yesterday was a bit of a re-run from last week. I have no idea as to how the church programs the messages and the speakers but last week I went on a Sunday morning and yesterday on a Saturday night. It was not exactly a re-run but it was pretty much 90% the same thing. It was about living on the edge and all that stuff. It was very empowering in the sense that it inspires you to move away from the norm and whatever is comfortable.
It made a lot of sense and I felt the message being aimed at me. Other than the fact that there was emphasis, being a semi re-run, I wouldn't have gone to church (because Iw as sick) if not for my pre-arranged meeting with Syd, the TV guy.
It's amazing how things would sometimes just fall into the right places.
I feel the need to scream just because of the little annoyances of life. I've tried to live with the fact that there are these minor unpleasantries that I have to sit through and endure until who knows when. Sometimes I wonder if they are all that minor because every now and then, I swear that they tend to drive me to the verge of insanity. Does it really help to voice out and complain when other people are involved or is it always better to just flex and change one's own perspective?
Life is beautiful. Mom said that to me the other day. That I already know but I never expected mom to tell me that. She added that one should just know how to live life. These are choices. Nobody should be confined to eternal damnation against one's will. But then again, I guess there's a big difference between living life and all it's wonders within one's comfort zone and going out of the boundaries being a tad adventurous. It's all about choices.
Jonathan's message yesterday was a bit of a re-run from last week. I have no idea as to how the church programs the messages and the speakers but last week I went on a Sunday morning and yesterday on a Saturday night. It was not exactly a re-run but it was pretty much 90% the same thing. It was about living on the edge and all that stuff. It was very empowering in the sense that it inspires you to move away from the norm and whatever is comfortable.
It made a lot of sense and I felt the message being aimed at me. Other than the fact that there was emphasis, being a semi re-run, I wouldn't have gone to church (because Iw as sick) if not for my pre-arranged meeting with Syd, the TV guy.
It's amazing how things would sometimes just fall into the right places.
Saturday, August 28, 2004
~ sick as a dog ~
I probably had too much dehydrating drinks Thursday night and not enough water. I felt absolutely crap when I woke up Friday morning. I got to sleep in a bit so it was wonderful that I didn't have to work. I had another attempt at reading my finance book and then I was off to the city to meet up with Pitter and help him shop.
I just felt the urgency and so I dragged myself out to the world and yeah I really don't like staying home too much. It was kinda difficult looking for what Pitter exactly wanted so it took us about 2 hours to find the right necklace and all. But all was good in the end.
I had like 3 phone calls throughout, one of them being a 15-minute phone interview. Amazing how my stuffed up mobile phone battery did not even twitch a single time. It was a good interview. Promising but I know once they find out I'm on student visa, they'll drop me like a hot hot potato. But it's still a good experience to be interviewed. I am not a fan of these things hence my need for a bit of practice.
I decided to head home and probably squeeze in a 20 minute power nap prior to meeting up with the lovely people I work with. It is really cool how all of us are pretty much friends at work. That is in such contrast to the Balmain crew. I love them but to a certain extent. I guess it's the similarities that draw us together here at Wynyard/Transport House. It's just nice and wonderful.
I felt so sick last night so I ended up missing the numero uno social event of the century. Okay maybe that's an exaggeration but yeah it won't be the same next time cos some of the partners are going off to other stores. We're just happy they decided to keep Transport House open. It's more like my second home than anything.
I have a fever when I woke up today so I felt really awful because I have to go to church tonight and meet Syd, the TV Crew boss or something similar. I took my tablets and went to sleep some more. My throat is bugging me like crazy and my head feels a bit funny. But yeah I think I'll be fine by 4pm.
Maybe it's time for another nap. I'm pretty much halfway through finance. I'm being very optimistic.
I just felt the urgency and so I dragged myself out to the world and yeah I really don't like staying home too much. It was kinda difficult looking for what Pitter exactly wanted so it took us about 2 hours to find the right necklace and all. But all was good in the end.
I had like 3 phone calls throughout, one of them being a 15-minute phone interview. Amazing how my stuffed up mobile phone battery did not even twitch a single time. It was a good interview. Promising but I know once they find out I'm on student visa, they'll drop me like a hot hot potato. But it's still a good experience to be interviewed. I am not a fan of these things hence my need for a bit of practice.
I decided to head home and probably squeeze in a 20 minute power nap prior to meeting up with the lovely people I work with. It is really cool how all of us are pretty much friends at work. That is in such contrast to the Balmain crew. I love them but to a certain extent. I guess it's the similarities that draw us together here at Wynyard/Transport House. It's just nice and wonderful.
I felt so sick last night so I ended up missing the numero uno social event of the century. Okay maybe that's an exaggeration but yeah it won't be the same next time cos some of the partners are going off to other stores. We're just happy they decided to keep Transport House open. It's more like my second home than anything.
I have a fever when I woke up today so I felt really awful because I have to go to church tonight and meet Syd, the TV Crew boss or something similar. I took my tablets and went to sleep some more. My throat is bugging me like crazy and my head feels a bit funny. But yeah I think I'll be fine by 4pm.
Maybe it's time for another nap. I'm pretty much halfway through finance. I'm being very optimistic.
Friday, August 27, 2004
In every sense of the word.
Here's to another attempt at reading my Finance book. Have a half-mark test coming up. It's not quite a midsession exam but hey it's pretty much that.
Sydney-Dubai (+ Lloyd's last Sydney day)
I was meant to meet up with Lloyd right before he left but he got so caught up doing his last minute thingamajigs in the arvo that we had to postpone it til after 9pm. So I was just hanging around work, studying and kinda helping them fix the rosters at the same time. The work-related bit is kinda frustrating. I decided to be uninvolved but I led them to the right direction anyway.
I dragged Al to my Company Law class cos she's having the undergrad version the exact same time and it was relatively as boring. I sat through most of the lecture without having my mind wander around which is a big plus for me.
Decided to really head home afterwards. I kinda got over my sadness fairly quickly anyway. I have more concrete justifications on the matter, really which I need not announce.
Intended to ring Lloyd prior to his flight yesterday morning but Sririn accidentally slept in so I opened the store on my own anyway and got kinda busy that I didn't get the chance to grab my phone and ring. Oh well.
Central-St. Leonards
So I caught my train from Central. I don't really like that place but the first bus from uni was from Central so I took it cos I wanted to get home quicker. Got on the train and accumulated a collection of eccentric personalities prior to crossing the Harbour Bridge.
Asian dude sat on my side of the long bench after this lady got off and he soooo reeked of Rugby! The Rugby we have back home that these poor homeless kids get addicted to! It was that awful overpowering varnish-like smell that would just not stop intruding your senses! Good thing that dude decided to aim for a 'better' spot.
I wasn't sure if the Rugby was coming from him but he seemed to have brought it on to our spot and as he left I was still trying to snort out the funky smell from my nostrils. I saw this lady on the other end of my bench and she had a weird look on her face which made me assume she was thinking along the same lines as me.
And poor lady, this weirdness of an old man across from her decided to comment upon her obvious discomfort and dubbed her "uptight." Mr. weird old man started preaching to her about religion and all sorts of stuff that she couldn't help but smile in a rather awkward manner. Guys sitting across me were grinning themselves. Poor lady must have had one of the weirdest train rides ever.
There's just funny people everywhere.
Wynyard-Kensington-Maroubra
Yesterday's class was pretty boring. I was happy to be sitting in front of a rather talkative Alex. He woke me up every now and again. I had to barge out of the class during the break cos Al needed help to get home.
It was like winning a trip to Maroubra. Her place was far out there although I have to admit the neighborhood is nice. Nicer if you have a car, though. The granny house was equally charming.
Maroubra-Town Hall
Had a nice night out with Jenny to cap the day off. We hung out for like 4 hours originally intending to watch a movie and decided against it. We engaged in like 3 series of mind baffling discussions about life and everything else in it. It was fun. We drank so much as we went from the Jap resto to Starbucks and then on to another cafe.
I call that a sign of getting old. We'd rather sit down and talk rather than do something active. We walked a fair bit from one place to another though. Last night was late night shopping but we didn't really remember until 9pm, which is when the shops close!
Oh well, maybe next time!
Sydney-Dubai (+ Lloyd's last Sydney day)
I was meant to meet up with Lloyd right before he left but he got so caught up doing his last minute thingamajigs in the arvo that we had to postpone it til after 9pm. So I was just hanging around work, studying and kinda helping them fix the rosters at the same time. The work-related bit is kinda frustrating. I decided to be uninvolved but I led them to the right direction anyway.
I dragged Al to my Company Law class cos she's having the undergrad version the exact same time and it was relatively as boring. I sat through most of the lecture without having my mind wander around which is a big plus for me.
Decided to really head home afterwards. I kinda got over my sadness fairly quickly anyway. I have more concrete justifications on the matter, really which I need not announce.
Intended to ring Lloyd prior to his flight yesterday morning but Sririn accidentally slept in so I opened the store on my own anyway and got kinda busy that I didn't get the chance to grab my phone and ring. Oh well.
Central-St. Leonards
So I caught my train from Central. I don't really like that place but the first bus from uni was from Central so I took it cos I wanted to get home quicker. Got on the train and accumulated a collection of eccentric personalities prior to crossing the Harbour Bridge.
Asian dude sat on my side of the long bench after this lady got off and he soooo reeked of Rugby! The Rugby we have back home that these poor homeless kids get addicted to! It was that awful overpowering varnish-like smell that would just not stop intruding your senses! Good thing that dude decided to aim for a 'better' spot.
I wasn't sure if the Rugby was coming from him but he seemed to have brought it on to our spot and as he left I was still trying to snort out the funky smell from my nostrils. I saw this lady on the other end of my bench and she had a weird look on her face which made me assume she was thinking along the same lines as me.
And poor lady, this weirdness of an old man across from her decided to comment upon her obvious discomfort and dubbed her "uptight." Mr. weird old man started preaching to her about religion and all sorts of stuff that she couldn't help but smile in a rather awkward manner. Guys sitting across me were grinning themselves. Poor lady must have had one of the weirdest train rides ever.
There's just funny people everywhere.
Wynyard-Kensington-Maroubra
Yesterday's class was pretty boring. I was happy to be sitting in front of a rather talkative Alex. He woke me up every now and again. I had to barge out of the class during the break cos Al needed help to get home.
It was like winning a trip to Maroubra. Her place was far out there although I have to admit the neighborhood is nice. Nicer if you have a car, though. The granny house was equally charming.
Maroubra-Town Hall
Had a nice night out with Jenny to cap the day off. We hung out for like 4 hours originally intending to watch a movie and decided against it. We engaged in like 3 series of mind baffling discussions about life and everything else in it. It was fun. We drank so much as we went from the Jap resto to Starbucks and then on to another cafe.
I call that a sign of getting old. We'd rather sit down and talk rather than do something active. We walked a fair bit from one place to another though. Last night was late night shopping but we didn't really remember until 9pm, which is when the shops close!
Oh well, maybe next time!
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