s.t.a.t.i.c.

i have every other reason to let my emotions surge.

where did that inner tranquility hide itself?

the moment's ultimate desire: Break Free!

blurbs..

i know i need to vent... just not sure how, don't know where to start...

it's partly the noise around me seemingly caving in... mixed in with disappointments here and there, more due to the unexpected events rather than due to my own pessimism.

confused... darn... thought i've worked out my masta plan!

the brawl-y song

If I am lost for a day; try and find me But if I don't come back, then I won't look behind me All of the things that I thought were so easy just got harder and harder each day December is the darkest and June is the light but this empty bedroom won't make anything right While out on the landing a friend I forgot to send home Who waits up for me all through the night Calendar girl whos in love with the world Stay alive Calendar Girl whos in love with the world Stay alive I dreamed I was dying; as I so often do And when I awoke I was sure it was true I ran to the window; threw my head to the sky And said whoever is up there,please don't let me die But I can't live forever,I can't always breath One day I'll be sand on a beach by a sea The pages keep turning, I'll mark off each day with a cross And I'll laugh about all that we've lost Calendar Girl who is lost to the world Stay Alive Calendar Girl who is lost to the world Stay Alive January,February,March,April,May I'm alive June,July,August,September,October I'm alive November,December,yah all through the winter, I'm alive I'm alive

the.epitome.of.KEWL

camera 5 = stage camera
that was me, tv crew
EasterConcert@TheSydneyConventionCentre

pre-tv crew rehearsal:
adrenalin rush. band rehearsing.
feel the creativity flowing. seemingly endless.
i could have stayed in that moment forever...

i wish i am...

... skipping stones.

take my time wiping my face clean after a busy day.
drink some milk, check my emails, slowly compose my blog.


... working on FLOOD and/or filming a short/feature/ad.

the passion burns... Walk the Line made me feel the flame all over again.
i have a long overdue lunch break journey to Saatchi & Saatchi.


... one of those born with luck on my side.

Woody Allen's latest masterpiece... in my world, it reads "frenchie vs me".
i love the overtly different, have tendencies thinking on extreme,
maybe even contradictory levels.

to have it rough makes you tough.

... living at that stage where Lyttleton's definition of happiness lies.

i want one and only one thing. 'nuff said.

Instant Gratification

People say that whenever you accidentally bite your tongue or the insides of your cheeks, you're being remembered. Whether that is good or bad is beyond me. For some reason, I've been a victim of myself, having suddenly developed steroids that have fattened my cheek tissues. I have accidentally bitten the insides of my left cheek whist eating, resulting to rather painfully chewed-on cheek interiors. If what people have said was true of course in the positive angle of things, I wouldn't mind going through life with that chewed-on cheek interior.

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Every single time I attempt to shove my foot into media, the little cat door closes. Perhaps it ain't time yet. It sure looks like now just ain't time for anything. I wondered quietly. I've started to wonder out loud.

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The alternative scene. The alternative art scene. Where passions burn and passions do not care about anything below the burning point. My veins begin to fill with that long missed lifeblood.

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Easter Monday. Day off. I am hanging out with g man and my bro.

that 'make your heart melt' song

When Did You Fall
Chris Rice

You’re all smiles and silly conversation
As if this sunny day came just for you
You twist your hair, you smile, and you turn your eyes away
C’mon, tell me what’s right with you
Now it dawns on me probably everybody’s talkin’
And there’s something here I’m supposed to realize
‘Cause your secret’s out, and the universe laughs at its joke on me
I just caught it in your eyes, it’s a beautiful surprise

When did you fall in love with me?
Was it out of the blue
‘Cause I swear I never knew it
When did you let your heart run free?
Have you been waiting long?
When did you fall in love with me?
When did you fall in love?

Make your way over here, sit down by this fool, and let’s rewind
C’mon, let’s go back and replay all our scenes
You can point out the hints, the clues, the twists and the smiles this time
All the ones that slipped by me
I bet my face is red, and you can hear my heart poundin’
Well I guess it don’t matter now that I realize
‘Cause baby I missed it then, but I can surely see you now
Right here before my eyes
You’re my beautiful surprise

When did you fall in love with me?
Was it out of the blue
‘Cause I swear I never knew it
When did you let your heart run free?
Have you been waiting long?
When did you fall in love with me?
When did you fall in love?

Was it at the coffee shop
Or that morning at the bus stop
When you almost slipped, and I caught your hand
Or the time we built the snowman
The day at the beach, sandy and warm
Or the night with the scary thunderstorm
I never saw the signs
Now we’ve got to make up for lost time
And I can tell now by the way that you’re looking at me
I’d better finish this song so my lips will be free

Have you been waiting long, when did you fall in love
I kept you waiting so long, when did you fall
Have you been waiting long
When did you fall in love with me
When did you fall in love?

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