ponderings..

I was told I should be learning to live with whatever ailment that was bestowed on me.

Eh? Isn't that what I've been doing?

I haven't been paranoid about this and whatever stress I feel is not caused by worrying over what ails me.

Moreso it is caused by having to do what I don't want to do and forcing myself to go through that as part of my daily routine.

The word routine in itself brings forth stress.

I've listened to Joseph Prince the whole morning talk about Grace&Favour. DVDs courtesy of Hillsong TV. And other than the grace and favour which is undeserved merit from God, he did talk about faith and also not making God an excuse a la 'way out'.

Totally driving me nuts. I need more guidance. Perhaps a big whack should come with it. Any shrink volunteers?