treading murky waters

The subject line connotes more of a question rather than a statement. I have caught myself reflecting about my almost four years in Sydney. I was 21 when I first came here. So many things have happened. I have changed more or less.

Now (or those years that led to now) is that crucial time of one's life where one ought to figure out where one wants to be in the long term. I reckon the less time you waste bumming around, the better. So at least do something that would result to a tick or an X-mark on your To Do List/s.

The question is one of those end-of-year posers, more like a quick reality check to make sure my feet are more or less grounded. Four years ago, I thought I was lost and I needed to find myself, my true identity. Four years after that, I'd say I am not quite there yet. Perhaps still a bit lost, perhaps starting to find an edge to cling on.

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It is another transitional stage. A few more goodbyes have been said. For some, the demise is just to head off to some place they gotta be in for the holidays but for others, the departure is more or less permanent.

I thought somewhere along the way I've grown immune to those goodbyes.

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Church hunting. Soul searching.

Annointing service 2006 is on.

2005 revelations:
I am where I ought to be.
--- I got my permanent residency this year.
I will be doing what I (love) am meant to be doing.
--- I got to do all 4 cameras in church, including the rocking stage camera! YEAHHH! And my writing career has taken a turn.DOUBLE YEAHHH!!!