Let the cross draw man to You

==Work life
Did a close yesterday. It wasn't such a good day just cos a lot of things were left undone and I had to do it so as not to let it build up. I'm closing again today so even if I didn't get those things done, I'll still end up doing them anyway. Our store ceiling broke. It's long overdue, actually. An incident just waiting to happen as the airconditioning and ventillation system has been causing us problems during the warm days. Perhaps this time we'll get a cooler work environment in summer. Well I had to stay back an extra 30 minutes yesterday waiting for the builders to decide if they're gonna fix it or not.

On a more professional note, I think my manager hates me. It's mutual anyway so there's hardly any loss except that I couldn't get him to refer me if need be. I knew other top people but they're all gone now. It is as if I've outlived their Starbucks career. The reason why it's inevitable to bring this up is the upcoming performance review. This manager has a rep to downgrade everybody. I think I know the outcome of my review.

==Church life
After three weeks of not being on the TV crew roster, I'm back but I did a couple of major boo boos. The worship team sang a different first song from what was on the list as we didn't reconfirm the songs and so I had to try and think and then scramble to find that lost song and then skipped the first verse entirely cos it takes a longer time to do things when you panic.

The TV big wig in Hills is there as well and he is rather scary so I was scared. And then the speaker had a lot of media aids with him including video and power point. Of course I was only aware of the power point and took the wrong cue so my power point went on top of the video and I got the boss screaming "take it off! take it off" at me. Sorry doesn't really help much in those times.

And so I stuffed up the first service, which I think is not that big a deal should you be a member of the audience. I made up for it in the second service because we were all paying more attention and cues are more clear cut thus the powerpoint had perfect timing.

I redeemed myself but I still feel bad about the boo boos perhaps because I fell short of my own standards. They were honest mistakes though. I still tried my very best.

The cell group is now called the connect group and coincidentally I bumped into my connect group leader or should I say ex-connect group leader. It took her a while to recognize me and then when I asked her she said she's leading a different group now and everyone's just gone elsewhere. It was on the one had disappointing but on the other I had a clearer perspective of where things are.

It was like back to square one. But I did try. Do I still get an A for effort?

= The so-called normal life
This is perhaps the hardest thing to figure out, not knowing where things are meant to be. One day I hope things will fall into place. Maybe that's not so much wishful thinking because I know for a fact they will. It's just gonna be a matter of time. Then I wish that time will come really soon.

What lies ahead include finishing, getting a residency and looking for a job here on top of establishing a different sort of life. Ack. I guess I have exams to worry about still. I'll leave the other stuff for later.